♥ Saturday, March 26, 2011 ♥
Neglected!
26 March 2011
I know I have been neglecting my blog shamefully!
Almost a month since I last updated. But a lot has been going on recently. Well, quite a lot, hehe.
I swear I'll update about my trip to Macau! Loads of photos to edit and post, so it'll take some time.
And I guess this time is one of the most crucial of my life : I have to make up my mind on where to study and more importantly, WHAT to study.
Ooh I have a feeling I've blogged about this before but who cares!
My earliest choice was fashion design but then after thinking about it for some time I concluded that fashion design wasn't for me. Sure, I love clothes, I love sketching pretty dresses and stuff (especially in class) but the real thing is way different. I have to learn to sew, keep up with the fashion in other countries, the designers and brands, catwalks, fashion shows for every season. I'm not sure whether fashion design courses ARE like that, but *shrugs*.
I understand that everyone has different tastes and styles, and beauty is in the eye of the beholder, blah blah blah, and unless if my designs are truly hideous, there's surely ONE person in the whole wide world who would like my designs. But ... I don't know. I don't know.
Then now, I'm considering journalism. I love blogging (albeit only about personal, every day, boring stuff, yeah), and when I'm in a good mood, I tend to say a lot. Too much, even. Haha. But I'm not sure whether it'll suit me, too. My English isn't exactly the best, so maybe I'll have to take extra English classes, to learn fancy, flowery vocabulary for special articles etc.
I'm also not entirely sure what journalism is about. As in, what you learn, etc. But I guess I'll find out, won't I? If I take the mass communication course, that is. I like the sound of journalism, but the other branches of mass communication? Like PR, advertising, broadcasting, etc? Not really my thing. I mean, it's ME I'm talking about. I loathe speaking in public, I'm not exactly great at socialising, interacting with other people.
I mean, I'm kind of a taciturn person. Unless if I know someone really well, then I'm crazy and overtalkative. I guess I can change myself and be a more sociable person, but I'm naturally a bit ... err, shy. LOL. Hahahaha. Sometimes.
I'm ... uh, constantly imagining myself having witty conversations with some person (sometimes celebs sometimes some random interviewer or hot guy HAHA), clever retorts, etc when I'm alone. But if I come face to face with one of them I'd probably get all tongue-tied and would stutter, and wait for them to find a conversation topic instead of starting one myself. Shy or what?
Soooo, yeah, lots of worries since I got my SPM results. It doesn't help that my dad is hurrying me into making decisions. Okay, not that bad, but it's like there's NOTHING else in the world except college/scholarships/college and college and more colleges. I understand that this is really vital, and can affect my whole future. But oh gosh, can't I take a break from it all? It is, what? Only three days since I got my results.
Pffft. All right, that's all I want to blab about today and I'll start editing my Macau photos tomorrow. If I have the time, because I'm being dragged to the KDU Open Day by my parents. Poo.
Sigh, how can I make my blog more lively and nicer to read like it used to be (says me hahaha), with photos and really stupid, random things? Obviously it's up to me but I don't know, every time I log in to Blogger, there must be something bothering me. And I'd end up rambling about some woeful event in my life. Yeah.
Okay, time for milk! Goodnight! :)
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
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