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THE MUSHROOM



name : tan juan
age : 18
hometown : malaysia


PIECES OF ME

LOVES

MUSHROOMS
shopping
drawing
TURQUOISE
MUSIC
rainbows
chocolates
chinese orchestra
fairy tales

HATES

CICAK WTF
creepy crawlies
homework
COPY CATS
chinese




GREAT ESCAPES

*chelsea*
*chia chia*
*crystal*
*ee leng*
*ee teng*
*jhing huey*
*jia lee*
*jo ying*
*jun fang*
*lee mei*
*mok mok*
*ning zhen*
*pei jia*
*pei qi*
*rui mei*
*su yin*
*teik hua*
*tict chyn*
*wen huey*
*wen yuan*
*xin yuan*
*xue yi*
*yi ching*





MEMOIRS

♥January 2007
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♥September 2007
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♥November 2007
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♥January 2009
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♥January 2010
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♥January 2011
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♥November 2011
♥January 2012
♥October 2012



THANKS TO

ME. kynzgerl
CODES. manikka
BRUSHES. 1 2
IMAGES. 1 2
The 2 paper heart: moargh.de
♥ Friday, December 10, 2010 ♥
Nightmare! :(

10 December 2010

SPM will be over in 4 days!

The last paper is Chinese. One of my worst nightmares besides Physics and Add Math! Yes, you probably know.

I really don't get Chinese. There can be so many different pronunciations for one stupid word. And some of the words look so similar to each other, just with a few differences, yet they all have different meanings AND pronunciations. Drives me crazy.

I'm Chinese but I don't like the language. I know, I sound all ignorant, it's my roots and all, but I really can't like it. I force myself to read Chinese books but I get tired and irritated so quickly, it's mad. The words are SO small and have so many 'strokes'. And the vocabulary, the terms, the phrases. There are so many ways to write one phrase, all using different words. You may say it's like synonyms, but no.

I don't know how to put it, it's like you can take one word from this one phrase, then join it with another word from another phrase, and you get this completely new phrase, either with a new meaning, or with the same meaning as both the phrases you took the words from. If you get what I mean.

Chinese!!! *groans* It's a pain in my ass.

It's ironic, really. Because I love the Chinese Orchestra so much. And some Chinese dances. And lots of things about this race. Except the language. And the songs and movies.

And I find it hard to write Chinese words neatly and quickly. It's impossible.

Oh, and all those lovely 'famous quotes' and 'old Chinese' (whatever you call them). The summary for Chinese is plain TORTURE. It's not like Malay, which would probably ask you to summarise a passage on the benefits, factors, causes, consequences, etc of something. For instance, the benefits of eating chocolate, which was what we got for the SPM Malay paper. That was the best summary I had ever done. Come on. The BENEFITS of chocolate. Oh yummy. :)

English is kind of the same, sometimes not, but still easier than Chinese.

What do you get for Chinese? You get : summarise the PROCESS (I can't think of any other more suitable word) of the monkey being made the king. Summarise the PROCESS of, say, the winning of bla bla empire in the bla bla war. If you get what I mean. Like how it happened, why it happened, what happened, yadda yadda.

TOTAL. PAIN. IN. THE. ASS.

It is SO difficult to find the correct and significant points. So normally, most people get very little marks. Out of 22 marks, I'd normally get ... hmm, from 10 - 14. Around. Plus or minus. Poo. The passages are so long and yet they expect us to summarise the whole freaking process into 120 words.

Okay, fine. 124 words. Which isn't much of a difference.

I know complaining isn't much use. But still. Sigh. I started to dislike this language once I started secondary school. I don't really remember why. And I started to really really detest it once I got into Form 4 because the teacher bloody criticised my essay in front of my whole class and humiliated me. It made me dread writing essays and getting my essays back from the teacher. I know, it's a weakness.

Can't help it. It's just like trigonometry. It's not like I don't attempt to do the questions. It's I CAN'T do the questions. I'd take out my piles of trigonometry exercises, full of confidence and determination which would crumble the moment I start to solve the first question.

I can't even start. Actually, couldn't is the more appropriate word to use, since the Add Math paper is over and I'm probably never ever ever going near this subject ever again.

I'd get really frustrated. Especially with those "prove this equation is equal to that equation" questions.

Like ARRGH. If they are the same, they are the same. Why prove it?!? It doesn't make sense. Add Math never made sense to me. Guess I'm not born with the type of brain which tolerates mathematical stuff full of complicated calculations. And that is precisely why I struggle with Physics too. Oh well. Guess I'm more the 'memorising' type, since I have, not that I'm trying to boast or anything, quite a good memory. If I use it properly, and if I decide that I want to memorise something.

Some things, I can memorise so well it actually surprises me. Like some the music scores for Chinese Orchestra that I have played once or twice, a few years ago. I can still remember them. Maybe there are some mistakes here and there, but I can remember most of them. I don't even know why, it's not like I tried to memorise them or anything, I just remember.

Like Rumi who asked me that day : "Hehe, my father is very handsome right?" And I told her I can't remember his face, but I do remember that he wears a gold ring on his finger. Yeah, I remember weird details like that. Like what clothes a person was wearing, what shoes, etc. Using my memory to remember the wrong kind of things. Sigh. Stupid right.

Anyway. Chinese. I'm reading (forcing myself to, anyway) Chinese model essays. Pfft. I almost want to give up. And there are six years' worth of 'famous quotes' to memorise. Not just the quotes, but who said them and in what book or something. This is one of the things my brain can NOT memorise. Maybe it's because I'm not particularly willing to memorise them, but I still try.

I have a feeling I'm going to write a whole load of crap during the exam, especially for the 'old Chinese' part. One poem one passage. Have to interpret them into 'new Chinese'. Oh boy. I have always wondered whether the teachers who mark the papers laugh at us when they read the crap we write. =_=

Okay. I have blabbed a lot. Heehee. Feel better now, not that it'll help me during the exam.

Going to Langkawi on 17th to 19th. Not sure if I should go to Genting (or if I'm allowed to) on the 15th and 16th. A bit of a tight schedule.

Oh, and I'll have to take driving lessons (the HORROR) soon, maybe in January. NOT looking forward to it, and especially not the extra driving lessons my dad is going to be giving me. I'll probably get scolded lots of times.

I have been living with him for 17 years and yet I still cannot tolerate his ... uh, temper. We're kind of similar. Extremely impatient and hot-tempered. So, guess I'll have to bite my tongue or something so I won't make impatient retorts or remarks and get myself shut out of the house.

Okay I'll shut up now. :S





craving chocolate kisses ..
8:34 PM