♥ Friday, August 20, 2010 ♥
In The End
20 August 2010
In the end, it doesn't even matter.
Fine! If things deteriorate, don't say we didn't try. Mind's in a turmoil. Am pretty sure mine's not the only one. Brilliant.
Trial exams are in 10 freaking days. Yes, I am aware that my last post is posted around 10 or 20? days ago. SO WHERE THE HECK DID THOSE DAYS GO?
Why is the time passing so quickly, whyyyyy.
Thank God for the September holidays. There's still time to study the three Sciences. And History, oh God. Additional Maths. Oh yeah. Great.
Didn't pay much attention in Physics today, was too tired, almost fell asleep. Stared at the teacher the whole time, gave a few half-hearted nods, widened my eyes occasionally, frowned a little with an expression of mild bewilderment and confusion, to convince the teacher that I was actually hanging on to her every word. When I wasn't.
So, I missed what she said on nuclear fusions and fissions and whatnot. Yay.
Biology wasn't much better. But still better.
Chemistry? Studied about soaps and detergents. *grimace* Not nice.
See. Why did the school frigging arranged all the three Science classes in the same day? They must be nuts. And all the language double periods also in the same day, Thursday.
And I really, really DETEST Chinese, oh GOD. I tried to read simple Chinese stories, but I took such a long time to finish one story that I ... uh, DREAD reading the others? Reading, unwillingly.
Made a lot of BM notes too, glad to see I'm improving, VERY SLIGHTLY. But it's an improvement nonetheless. At least there are some questions on my tuition papers that I can answer. Phew. But I still quite dislike BM. Sigh. All the imbuhans and stuff, it's really confusing.
English? Hahaha. I read and flip through the dictionary at school, a lot. People must think I'm crazy. But I love it. I love 'reading' dictionaries, and seeing what interesting words I can find (and more importantly, to use).
Moral. The most useless subject EVER, besides History, of course. I mean, okay, History is not useless, it's just devastatingly boring. Well, the History we study, that is. Now, who the hell STUDIES and memorises all the definitions of the moral values? US! So, basically, we're studying Moral (to become a better person, etc) by MEMORISING definitions and key words yadda yadda. And writing essays. Siao one.
Civics? Don't even mention it. Oh yuck.
PE! Yes! I like PE. Hahaha.
Right, I do not know why I'm giving an account of ... my take and opinion on every subject. *shrugs*
Fuck, I should be studying about the fascinating reproductive system of plants now. I have no idea why the time flew so quickly, I swear the last time I looked at the time it was 8.00 pm. Fine. No more studying for today. SHIT. Must not use the computer tomorrow. I MUST NOT.
Going to school in the morning. Despite all the problems in CO, I still miss it! Sigh. So hopefully when I come back (if I DARE to, that is) after I graduate, CO will still be above average standards, or better yet, that CO will be BETTER. Must not keep my hopes high, if things continue the way they are now. RIGHT. This is a topic I do not want to touch on. I could post 10 posts about it once I start.
Sigh. I swear I'm going crazy.
In the end, it doesn't even matter.
Fine! If things deteriorate, don't say we didn't try. Mind's in a turmoil. Am pretty sure mine's not the only one. Brilliant.
Trial exams are in 10 freaking days. Yes, I am aware that my last post is posted around 10 or 20? days ago. SO WHERE THE HECK DID THOSE DAYS GO?
Why is the time passing so quickly, whyyyyy.
Thank God for the September holidays. There's still time to study the three Sciences. And History, oh God. Additional Maths. Oh yeah. Great.
Didn't pay much attention in Physics today, was too tired, almost fell asleep. Stared at the teacher the whole time, gave a few half-hearted nods, widened my eyes occasionally, frowned a little with an expression of mild bewilderment and confusion, to convince the teacher that I was actually hanging on to her every word. When I wasn't.
So, I missed what she said on nuclear fusions and fissions and whatnot. Yay.
Biology wasn't much better. But still better.
Chemistry? Studied about soaps and detergents. *grimace* Not nice.
See. Why did the school frigging arranged all the three Science classes in the same day? They must be nuts. And all the language double periods also in the same day, Thursday.
And I really, really DETEST Chinese, oh GOD. I tried to read simple Chinese stories, but I took such a long time to finish one story that I ... uh, DREAD reading the others? Reading, unwillingly.
Made a lot of BM notes too, glad to see I'm improving, VERY SLIGHTLY. But it's an improvement nonetheless. At least there are some questions on my tuition papers that I can answer. Phew. But I still quite dislike BM. Sigh. All the imbuhans and stuff, it's really confusing.
English? Hahaha. I read and flip through the dictionary at school, a lot. People must think I'm crazy. But I love it. I love 'reading' dictionaries, and seeing what interesting words I can find (and more importantly, to use).
Moral. The most useless subject EVER, besides History, of course. I mean, okay, History is not useless, it's just devastatingly boring. Well, the History we study, that is. Now, who the hell STUDIES and memorises all the definitions of the moral values? US! So, basically, we're studying Moral (to become a better person, etc) by MEMORISING definitions and key words yadda yadda. And writing essays. Siao one.
Civics? Don't even mention it. Oh yuck.
PE! Yes! I like PE. Hahaha.
Right, I do not know why I'm giving an account of ... my take and opinion on every subject. *shrugs*
Fuck, I should be studying about the fascinating reproductive system of plants now. I have no idea why the time flew so quickly, I swear the last time I looked at the time it was 8.00 pm. Fine. No more studying for today. SHIT. Must not use the computer tomorrow. I MUST NOT.
Going to school in the morning. Despite all the problems in CO, I still miss it! Sigh. So hopefully when I come back (if I DARE to, that is) after I graduate, CO will still be above average standards, or better yet, that CO will be BETTER. Must not keep my hopes high, if things continue the way they are now. RIGHT. This is a topic I do not want to touch on. I could post 10 posts about it once I start.
Sigh. I swear I'm going crazy.
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
9:12 PM
9:12 PM
♥ Sunday, August 01, 2010 ♥
Instead of Studying
1 August 2010
Trial exams for SPM is in exactly 29 days, and I have only tackled around ... uh, 20 pages of Chemistry? Brilliant.
Don't wanna think about it.
Kept telling myself that "I'll be fine". Such a lie. Hahaha.
I don't get myself sometimes. I badly want to do well in the exams, and get ... acceptable results, but I just wouldn't study. I would laze around in the morning, read and reread Harry Potter books, and I even read my childhood favourites, like, you know, The Enchanted Wood, The Secret Island, etc. Haha.
In these few days I have devoured around ... 10? books. (The longer I think about it the more books it seem that I have read)
And I told myself that I was, in a way, studying for English. Which was totally true. Assuaged my guilt. A little.
Whyyyy! Why can't I study like a good girl? I'm just so bloody lazy, I can't stand myself. I really am set on doing everything, anything, except study.
I sat down and stared into space, generally wasting my time, instead of studying.
I exercised for almost one hour and a half, instead of studying. (think of all the studying I could have done! Arrgh.)
I went shopping, instead of studying.
I kept surfing the web for interesting stuff, instead of studying.
I took very short naps even though I just woke up like, 3 or 4 hours ago, instead of studying.
I read books I have read 10 thousand times before, instead of studying.
I am updating my blog, instead of studying about bloody redox reactions.
How the heck am I going to scrape passes in the trials (and SPM), I really don't know.
Sigh.
There probably will be some updates (with photos) soon-ish. Since, you know, that I'm doing everything to evade my books. Reference books and textbooks, that is.
Laaaaaaaa. Okay. I'm going to do something else (except study). CRAP. I really must start studying properly tomorrow. I SWEAR.
Anyway. All the best to those who are sitting for their tests tomorrow! No need to be so stressed about it. It's just a TEST. :)
Trial exams for SPM is in exactly 29 days, and I have only tackled around ... uh, 20 pages of Chemistry? Brilliant.
Don't wanna think about it.
Kept telling myself that "I'll be fine". Such a lie. Hahaha.
I don't get myself sometimes. I badly want to do well in the exams, and get ... acceptable results, but I just wouldn't study. I would laze around in the morning, read and reread Harry Potter books, and I even read my childhood favourites, like, you know, The Enchanted Wood, The Secret Island, etc. Haha.
In these few days I have devoured around ... 10? books. (The longer I think about it the more books it seem that I have read)
And I told myself that I was, in a way, studying for English. Which was totally true. Assuaged my guilt. A little.
Whyyyy! Why can't I study like a good girl? I'm just so bloody lazy, I can't stand myself. I really am set on doing everything, anything, except study.
I sat down and stared into space, generally wasting my time, instead of studying.
I exercised for almost one hour and a half, instead of studying. (think of all the studying I could have done! Arrgh.)
I went shopping, instead of studying.
I kept surfing the web for interesting stuff, instead of studying.
I took very short naps even though I just woke up like, 3 or 4 hours ago, instead of studying.
I read books I have read 10 thousand times before, instead of studying.
I am updating my blog, instead of studying about bloody redox reactions.
How the heck am I going to scrape passes in the trials (and SPM), I really don't know.
Sigh.
There probably will be some updates (with photos) soon-ish. Since, you know, that I'm doing everything to evade my books. Reference books and textbooks, that is.
Laaaaaaaa. Okay. I'm going to do something else (except study). CRAP. I really must start studying properly tomorrow. I SWEAR.
Anyway. All the best to those who are sitting for their tests tomorrow! No need to be so stressed about it. It's just a TEST. :)
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
9:16 PM
9:16 PM