2 February 2010

Hair was cut by the discipline teacher(S) today. Brilliant. Another discipline teacher who was in the room said that I should feel proud and honoured because I had two discipline teachers TENDING TO my hair at the same time.

Yep.

Hahaha. Not much difference, and it WAS a free haircut mah, should be happy.

Sorry to Rumi for getting impatient with her today! Don't know what was wrong with me. Too stressed, I guess. Haha. Not.

My crazy ass of a dad said he didn't know why he had a lousy daughter like me, and he didn't want a daughter like me. And his tone wasn't all teasing and humourous, nope. He was shouting like a maniac. As usual. No surprises there. *rolls eyes*

Well, too bad. I'm not exactly loving him as my father either.

What's wrong with a few "I don't knows"? He of all people should understand how easy it is to get impatient. Who is the one who always shouts at home? He always has lacked patience, and now when I got a bit impatient, he freaking screamed at me. Well, FINE. Not like I haven't experienced it before.

I wasn't the one who kept changing the plans and complaining about things. I was the one sitting there, doing my Chemistry PEKA. I couldn't concentrate, with his voice complaining about this and that in my head, so I got impatient. Big deal.

Freaking threatened me somemore, said he won't allow me to go for practice tomorrow. Shucks. I don't care if he screams at me. Like I said, I'm used to it by now. Since I'm such a rude, impolite, lousy daughter, and got shouted at many times. But CO?

Okay. Maybe I'm too naive and dumb. No, wait. I AM naive and dumb. I don't understand him, and he will never understand me. I guess I like it like that. I'm gonna lock myself in my room 24/7 from now on, except for mealtimes. Anything to avoid seeing him and talking to him. Gotta be in the same freaking CAR with him tomorrow night. God, I am so looking forward to it.

I must smile more! I feel the corners of my mouth turning downwards all the time. Not all the time. Just ... a lot of times. Like when I heard the super annoying, act-cute Chinese singer crooning some dumb song on the radio. Ugggh. Vomit.

Gotta sleep now. AND it's 11:28 PM!! :)

Smile!

I'll post random photos (of truffles, makeup, food, etc) the next time! Haven't taken any photos for ages. Poo.

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Sorry. I know I'm supposed to SMILE. Kinda pissed now. Bad day.