♥ Friday, July 31, 2009 ♥
Complications
31 July 2009
I am doomed. For real.
Yeah, yeah, I know you are tired of hearing that. But it's different this time. Seriously.
BECAUSE I AM LEAVING FOR GENTING AT THE CRACK OF DAWN TOMORROW.
And I have a mountain of books to flip through. Emphasis on the word FLIP THROUGH. I don't even get to read them properly! Not that I want to. I know this is just a meaningless, dumb test. But still. I don't want to get too lousy results. You know. Parents' reactions and all that.
Maybe I'll come back sick from Genting. Catch a cold and miss the first day (or all of them) of the exam. But then all my meticulous efforts for studying History will be futile! Because I probably will forget everything I forcefully squeezed into my brain, and I will have to study the whole thing AGAIN for the finals. Boo.
Now, I'm not worried about History or even Chemistry or even BIOLOGY - which has around ten thousand nutrients, their functions and deficiency diseases to memorise.
I am more worried about Physics. Oh, God. PHYSICS. I am so dead. I am having a truly agonizing time trying to understand everything. Archimedes! WHAT IS THAT ABOUT? Pressure. Hydraulic system. Manometers. Even Force. And basically, everything else. To me, Physics is useless. I don't even know why I made the decision to torture myself with this subject. It had to be one of my biggest errors in life so far. Wrong choice.
I have a good mind to give up on the Physics test this time. I got 54 marks for my Physics last time. I was lucky to even PASS the paper. I read the notes over and over, tried my best to understand everything, while at the same time running through all the rude words I know in my mind. I TRIED.
This time. I tried too, but to no avail. Screw Bernoulli's Principle or whatever. I can't even get pass Archimedes. I got past Force and Pressure ambiguously. Arrrgh. Nooo I'm probably going to fail my Physics this time. AND ADD MATHS. Damn. Logarithms. Differentiation. Another stupid thing I am forced to learn.
I'm running out of time. I know I shouldn't be updating my blog if I have insufficient time. But I'm feeling too dejected to continue studying Physics (or anything) anymore. I don't even know if I can enjoy myself while I am at Genting. I probably can. Because this is just a test. I just have to be more determined in convincing myself that this test is not important, that it doesn't matter if I flunk every subject this time.
Ugghh. I didn't start revising early enough. Typical. I study for exams. Not to learn new things. I just do what I have to do, what I am forced to do. When can this life end?
**************
I have a lot to think about. It is such a horrible ordeal to go through. For me. You have no idea. I did try, but I guess I couldn't stand the thought that things might go wrong, and it would end right there and then.
I honestly feel like finally understanding, but then, it only brings me pain. I should just pretend to be oblivious to everything. Then things won't be so peculiar.
Monday. An awkward combination of Dread and Anticipation. How is it that things are suddenly so complicated?
Going to Genting might be the best way to take my mind off things, to relax, to mull things over. IF ONLY THE EXAM IS NOT ON THE NEXT DAY. Sigh. I don't want to lug my heavy books to Genting. But I have to, although I seriously doubt that I will have the time or energy (or the MOOD) to study. But at least my conscience won't be so guilty and strickened.
I hope nothing happens tomorrow. Please, God.
Happy Birthday to Jane's Mum!!
And Happy Belated Birthday to our BELOVED Lai Sheng!!! :)
I am doomed. For real.
Yeah, yeah, I know you are tired of hearing that. But it's different this time. Seriously.
BECAUSE I AM LEAVING FOR GENTING AT THE CRACK OF DAWN TOMORROW.
And I have a mountain of books to flip through. Emphasis on the word FLIP THROUGH. I don't even get to read them properly! Not that I want to. I know this is just a meaningless, dumb test. But still. I don't want to get too lousy results. You know. Parents' reactions and all that.
Maybe I'll come back sick from Genting. Catch a cold and miss the first day (or all of them) of the exam. But then all my meticulous efforts for studying History will be futile! Because I probably will forget everything I forcefully squeezed into my brain, and I will have to study the whole thing AGAIN for the finals. Boo.
Now, I'm not worried about History or even Chemistry or even BIOLOGY - which has around ten thousand nutrients, their functions and deficiency diseases to memorise.
I am more worried about Physics. Oh, God. PHYSICS. I am so dead. I am having a truly agonizing time trying to understand everything. Archimedes! WHAT IS THAT ABOUT? Pressure. Hydraulic system. Manometers. Even Force. And basically, everything else. To me, Physics is useless. I don't even know why I made the decision to torture myself with this subject. It had to be one of my biggest errors in life so far. Wrong choice.
I have a good mind to give up on the Physics test this time. I got 54 marks for my Physics last time. I was lucky to even PASS the paper. I read the notes over and over, tried my best to understand everything, while at the same time running through all the rude words I know in my mind. I TRIED.
This time. I tried too, but to no avail. Screw Bernoulli's Principle or whatever. I can't even get pass Archimedes. I got past Force and Pressure ambiguously. Arrrgh. Nooo I'm probably going to fail my Physics this time. AND ADD MATHS. Damn. Logarithms. Differentiation. Another stupid thing I am forced to learn.
I'm running out of time. I know I shouldn't be updating my blog if I have insufficient time. But I'm feeling too dejected to continue studying Physics (or anything) anymore. I don't even know if I can enjoy myself while I am at Genting. I probably can. Because this is just a test. I just have to be more determined in convincing myself that this test is not important, that it doesn't matter if I flunk every subject this time.
Ugghh. I didn't start revising early enough. Typical. I study for exams. Not to learn new things. I just do what I have to do, what I am forced to do. When can this life end?
**************
I have a lot to think about. It is such a horrible ordeal to go through. For me. You have no idea. I did try, but I guess I couldn't stand the thought that things might go wrong, and it would end right there and then.
I honestly feel like finally understanding, but then, it only brings me pain. I should just pretend to be oblivious to everything. Then things won't be so peculiar.
Monday. An awkward combination of Dread and Anticipation. How is it that things are suddenly so complicated?
Going to Genting might be the best way to take my mind off things, to relax, to mull things over. IF ONLY THE EXAM IS NOT ON THE NEXT DAY. Sigh. I don't want to lug my heavy books to Genting. But I have to, although I seriously doubt that I will have the time or energy (or the MOOD) to study. But at least my conscience won't be so guilty and strickened.
I hope nothing happens tomorrow. Please, God.
Happy Birthday to Jane's Mum!!
And Happy Belated Birthday to our BELOVED Lai Sheng!!! :)
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
10:49 PM
10:49 PM
♥ Sunday, July 26, 2009 ♥
Best Wishes ;)
26 July 2009
Random stuff at the bottom.
Jane, See Teng, Hsieh Ying, my sister and I paid a visit to Puan Chia at the Gleneagles Medical Centre last night.
Fortunately, her surgery was a success, and she is currently 'recuperating and in good spirits', as Pei Qi put it.
When we arrived, we saw some of my primary school classmates who were there to visit her as well. I barely recognized them!! *embarrassed grin* Yeah, I have a lousy memory when it comes to that sort of thing. Pooo.
Anyway, they didn't see us, because we were ... uh, in the little shop at the corner. The five of us only brought one big packet of honey oats for Puan Chia, and we were scared it wasn't enough. So we quickly bought something from the shop for her. Hopefully she didn't notice. Hahaha.
Personally, I don't think it matters, it's the thought that counts, no?
She looked so .... emaciated, exhausted and bored!! But she still joked around like her usual self. Gotta love her sense of humour, and her undying passion for Astro. :)
Back in primary school, she was the teacher most students detested, because she was very strict, and kept reprimanding us, punishing us, yelling at us.
But now, after we all graduated? I can, without a doubt, say that she is one of the best teachers I have ever met.
Apparently, many people agreed. You just have to take a look at the amount of gifts and presents she received! Baskets and baskets of gorgeous flowers, baskets of fruits, stacks of handmade cards (mostly from the primary school students) ....
Most of the cards' contents are the same : Teacher, we can't get used to you not being here and scolding us every day. We miss your reproving voice. Teacher, we fervently hope you'd get well soon, and come back to teach us and scold us.
It was really touching. *watery smile*
Thank you, Puan Chia. Best wishes to you ; we love you!! :D
*************
The exams are coming in one week. Yay. No, I haven't started. Of course.
I finally watched Hannibal Rising!! GASPARD ULLIEL!! He is sooo damn gorgeous. His eyes are so ... mesmerizing. His accent is so sexy. His nose. His lips. Ahhh.
He still looks hot EVEN THOUGH he is playing a mad pyscho in the movie who takes pleasure in killing people in the cruelest way possible and who eats human flesh. Eeeek. I don't like his hair all slicked back in the movie! But he is still freaking cute. ARRGH. French.
Gong Li made out with him in the movie!! Lucky ass. HAHA. I know. I am such a typical ... AIRHEAD! (Juan Wen said this name suits me well. Ha-ha. *rolls eyes*)
**********
Uhm. Going to Genting in five days. Whoopee. Screw exams, screw exams, SCREW EXAMS!
Damn. I have two English essays to write and two Chinese essays (which I prefer to ignore, thank you very much). I am SO not in the mood to study. Surprised much? Help me. HELP ME.
If I get awful results, I shall just tell my parents the roller coasters made me forget everything I studied. Yes. Logical. Superb excuse. Yay.
And, oh.
Happy Birthday, Wen Chien!!
*yeah yeah whoa
i know you hate me
yeah yeah whoa
well i miss you too
yeah yeah i know
it's kind of late,
but
happy birthday!*
Haha. The only person I know (from school) who knows this song when I sing it. Emphasis on the WHEN I SING IT. Which is not very often. But still. Eh, actually I think she sang it first. I think I only sang the song to Rui Mei and Iris in the past.
Okay. Fine. I don't remember. Too much historical information in my mind. You know, animism, humans' very first beliefs, which caves they lived in, stuff like that.
Happy Birthday, Puan Chia's son!!
Take good care of your mom. Don't make her angry, and let her watch all the Astro shows she pleases!! :D
*She was so sad when she said she couldn't celebrate her son's birthday with him. Aww.
Random stuff at the bottom.
Jane, See Teng, Hsieh Ying, my sister and I paid a visit to Puan Chia at the Gleneagles Medical Centre last night.
Fortunately, her surgery was a success, and she is currently 'recuperating and in good spirits', as Pei Qi put it.
When we arrived, we saw some of my primary school classmates who were there to visit her as well. I barely recognized them!! *embarrassed grin* Yeah, I have a lousy memory when it comes to that sort of thing. Pooo.
Anyway, they didn't see us, because we were ... uh, in the little shop at the corner. The five of us only brought one big packet of honey oats for Puan Chia, and we were scared it wasn't enough. So we quickly bought something from the shop for her. Hopefully she didn't notice. Hahaha.
Personally, I don't think it matters, it's the thought that counts, no?
She looked so .... emaciated, exhausted and bored!! But she still joked around like her usual self. Gotta love her sense of humour, and her undying passion for Astro. :)
Back in primary school, she was the teacher most students detested, because she was very strict, and kept reprimanding us, punishing us, yelling at us.
But now, after we all graduated? I can, without a doubt, say that she is one of the best teachers I have ever met.
Apparently, many people agreed. You just have to take a look at the amount of gifts and presents she received! Baskets and baskets of gorgeous flowers, baskets of fruits, stacks of handmade cards (mostly from the primary school students) ....
Most of the cards' contents are the same : Teacher, we can't get used to you not being here and scolding us every day. We miss your reproving voice. Teacher, we fervently hope you'd get well soon, and come back to teach us and scold us.
It was really touching. *watery smile*
Thank you, Puan Chia. Best wishes to you ; we love you!! :D
*************
The exams are coming in one week. Yay. No, I haven't started. Of course.
I finally watched Hannibal Rising!! GASPARD ULLIEL!! He is sooo damn gorgeous. His eyes are so ... mesmerizing. His accent is so sexy. His nose. His lips. Ahhh.
He still looks hot EVEN THOUGH he is playing a mad pyscho in the movie who takes pleasure in killing people in the cruelest way possible and who eats human flesh. Eeeek. I don't like his hair all slicked back in the movie! But he is still freaking cute. ARRGH. French.
Gong Li made out with him in the movie!! Lucky ass. HAHA. I know. I am such a typical ... AIRHEAD! (Juan Wen said this name suits me well. Ha-ha. *rolls eyes*)
**********
Uhm. Going to Genting in five days. Whoopee. Screw exams, screw exams, SCREW EXAMS!
Damn. I have two English essays to write and two Chinese essays (which I prefer to ignore, thank you very much). I am SO not in the mood to study. Surprised much? Help me. HELP ME.
If I get awful results, I shall just tell my parents the roller coasters made me forget everything I studied. Yes. Logical. Superb excuse. Yay.
And, oh.
Happy Birthday, Wen Chien!!
*yeah yeah whoa
i know you hate me
yeah yeah whoa
well i miss you too
yeah yeah i know
it's kind of late,
but
happy birthday!*
Haha. The only person I know (from school) who knows this song when I sing it. Emphasis on the WHEN I SING IT. Which is not very often. But still. Eh, actually I think she sang it first. I think I only sang the song to Rui Mei and Iris in the past.
Okay. Fine. I don't remember. Too much historical information in my mind. You know, animism, humans' very first beliefs, which caves they lived in, stuff like that.
Happy Birthday, Puan Chia's son!!
Take good care of your mom. Don't make her angry, and let her watch all the Astro shows she pleases!! :D
*She was so sad when she said she couldn't celebrate her son's birthday with him. Aww.
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
7:51 PM
7:51 PM
♥ Thursday, July 23, 2009 ♥
Stunned
23 July 2009
Everything seemed weird at school today.
I guess things didn't exactly go as planned.
Anyway, someone just told me something, and although I WAS sort of expecting it, I still feel very stunned all the same. To be told the truth, so straightforwardly.
What can I say? It was a question I wondered about. And wondering why I wonder about it is another question that frequently appears in my mind. Why do I care so much?
I'll get over it ... eventually.
Things will be so different. Actually, they already are. This is unbearable. Eeeek.
********
I will post up the photos (you know, photos from the trip to Singapore last year and from two centuries ago, concert photos, et cetera) soon-ish! If I don't get too lazy, that is. Pretty unlikely. Hahaha.
HORRIFIC REALISATION!! The exams (Test. Not exams. TEST.) are approaching, in 10 days. TEN FREAKING DAYS. It seems like yesterday when I got my awful Add Maths results.
I haven't studied a thing. I don't FEEL like studying anything. When there are so many upsetting/maddening/irritating thoughts in my mind. Noooo. Physics. Why?!? WHY! Why are we studying all these crap? Who the hell wants to know the way to calculate the force of one's ... water bottles on the computer table, WHO!?
So, if you see an airplane in the sky. Would you nudge your friend and say : "Hmm, I think there's a ___N friction force acting on the plane." WOULD YOU?!?!
Biology is better. Slightly. At least it's kind of useful. Like if you are suffering from ... say, constipation, you would know that you have to drink more water and eat more fruits. Okay, fine. That is general knowledge.
By studying Biology, you would know what is in your faeces and a rabbit's faeces! (in case, you know, you have a pet rabbit or something and you wonder why it's shit smells so repulsive) Haaaa. Yeah it's definitely better than calculating stupid, invisible forces.
Chemistry ... I don't know whether it's useful or not, but either way, forget it, as I don't understand a single thing the teacher said anyway.
Hoooo what a wonderful world.
Everything seemed weird at school today.
I guess things didn't exactly go as planned.
Anyway, someone just told me something, and although I WAS sort of expecting it, I still feel very stunned all the same. To be told the truth, so straightforwardly.
What can I say? It was a question I wondered about. And wondering why I wonder about it is another question that frequently appears in my mind. Why do I care so much?
I'll get over it ... eventually.
Things will be so different. Actually, they already are. This is unbearable. Eeeek.
********
I will post up the photos (you know, photos from the trip to Singapore last year and from two centuries ago, concert photos, et cetera) soon-ish! If I don't get too lazy, that is. Pretty unlikely. Hahaha.
HORRIFIC REALISATION!! The exams (Test. Not exams. TEST.) are approaching, in 10 days. TEN FREAKING DAYS. It seems like yesterday when I got my awful Add Maths results.
I haven't studied a thing. I don't FEEL like studying anything. When there are so many upsetting/maddening/irritating thoughts in my mind. Noooo. Physics. Why?!? WHY! Why are we studying all these crap? Who the hell wants to know the way to calculate the force of one's ... water bottles on the computer table, WHO!?
So, if you see an airplane in the sky. Would you nudge your friend and say : "Hmm, I think there's a ___N friction force acting on the plane." WOULD YOU?!?!
Biology is better. Slightly. At least it's kind of useful. Like if you are suffering from ... say, constipation, you would know that you have to drink more water and eat more fruits. Okay, fine. That is general knowledge.
By studying Biology, you would know what is in your faeces and a rabbit's faeces! (in case, you know, you have a pet rabbit or something and you wonder why it's shit smells so repulsive) Haaaa. Yeah it's definitely better than calculating stupid, invisible forces.
Chemistry ... I don't know whether it's useful or not, but either way, forget it, as I don't understand a single thing the teacher said anyway.
Hoooo what a wonderful world.
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
8:34 PM
8:34 PM
♥ Monday, July 20, 2009 ♥
Sorry :(
20 July 2009
I am such a horrible, horrible person.
I am sorry I ever said those things to you. I feel awful. I regretted saying those things the moment they escaped from my mouth.
And you. I feel even worse. I'm really really really sorry. :( Why do I always say all the wrong things? That makes me not much different from HER. The bitch. She doesn't think before she speaks. I didn't either. I apologize if I hurt you. Which I'm sure I did.
I never really thought about this much. But when I found out I hurt (I THINK I did) the people I truly love and care about, I finally started to feel bad. I am such an awesome person.
I feel so guilty. *bangs head on wall*
And why am I so freaking scared of humiliation? I shouldn't be. But I am. I appreciate every single thing everyone said to me that day, when I was being all dumb and paranoid (as usual). I don't know what to say anymore. Those people who were so nice to me. Teachers TA, LPL, CLS, etc. Lai Sheng. All my CO friends. My other friends. Thanks a bunch, for reassuring me over and over that there's absolutely nothing to fear about. That everyone in the whole world has totally varied tastes. That some people would appreciate what you do, and some (BITCH. FUCK YOU.) would just SHOW their disdain and be all snotty instead.
Yes. Bitch. I don't care how rude I am. YOU were also horribly rude and impolite to me. I know I am equally bad, to stoop to the same level as you. Sorry. I still think people who treats someone badly deserve the same treatment themselves.
Which makes me think. I hurt someone. That someone should hurt me as well. Why shouldn't she? I sort of hope she does. THEN I'll know what it feels like.
I think we are so alike. The two of us are clearly the type of people whom other people should never get to the wrong side of. (That, is another weird sentence. I can't think, I can't concentrate. Sorry.)
UGGGH. Bitch. BITCH. I normally don't dwell on things of the past. *cough* NORMALLY. This is an exception. I am too pissed. It wasn't just M & I. Apparently SOME other people got the same treatment. From you. So they ask me to not care about what you said, because it's just completely pointless. Fine. I accept the fact that I'll never quite live up to your expectations. Who actually can? We are just STUDENTS for God's sake. Stop asking so much of us.
Even the best of us make mistakes sometimes. Nobody's perfect. Don't ACT like you never did any wrong. I am sure you did. All the time. Just like all of us. It's ... nature?
AND YOUR ATTITUDE (yes I know, I KNOW I AM EQUALLY BAD but shut up let me just continue, this is the only way to deal with my anger my wrath my FURY)!!! What, is the fucking point of scowling and glaring at innocent people? WHAT?! Okay, I don't deny that I wasn't the innocent one. But what about them? Why glare at them?
Ugggh. I don't think I have been this rude before. Trust me, I never treat people I really detest with respect. If I do, it means I don't REALLY loathe them. I might feel a tiny bit of hatred towards them. Just a tiny bit.
Fine. END of all nonsense here. Because first. I can't really express my feelings. I still think my English sucks. Second. I want to edit the school concert photos. Third. It's a waste of breath. I am perfectly aware of that. But I still can't refrain myself from adding some nasty things about you. Damn. I really am horrible. When it comes to you.
And ....
Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.
I don't deserve all your kindness. I really don't.
**I especially want to thank Teacher TA. She was (is) sooo nice to me. "You can only speak normally around someone you feel comfortable with". Makes so much sense. Seeing that I am able to speak (more) normally around her and not around YOU. Eeek. I was at a constant loss for words while speaking to you.
I will never ever forget what you said to me while I was backstage. Thanks a lot. :)
(Eh sorry for the weird English. Arrgh how can I improve my English? Why do I suck in everything? I am such a sucky person. Eeeeee.)
I am such a horrible, horrible person.
I am sorry I ever said those things to you. I feel awful. I regretted saying those things the moment they escaped from my mouth.
And you. I feel even worse. I'm really really really sorry. :( Why do I always say all the wrong things? That makes me not much different from HER. The bitch. She doesn't think before she speaks. I didn't either. I apologize if I hurt you. Which I'm sure I did.
I never really thought about this much. But when I found out I hurt (I THINK I did) the people I truly love and care about, I finally started to feel bad. I am such an awesome person.
I feel so guilty. *bangs head on wall*
And why am I so freaking scared of humiliation? I shouldn't be. But I am. I appreciate every single thing everyone said to me that day, when I was being all dumb and paranoid (as usual). I don't know what to say anymore. Those people who were so nice to me. Teachers TA, LPL, CLS, etc. Lai Sheng. All my CO friends. My other friends. Thanks a bunch, for reassuring me over and over that there's absolutely nothing to fear about. That everyone in the whole world has totally varied tastes. That some people would appreciate what you do, and some (BITCH. FUCK YOU.) would just SHOW their disdain and be all snotty instead.
Yes. Bitch. I don't care how rude I am. YOU were also horribly rude and impolite to me. I know I am equally bad, to stoop to the same level as you. Sorry. I still think people who treats someone badly deserve the same treatment themselves.
Which makes me think. I hurt someone. That someone should hurt me as well. Why shouldn't she? I sort of hope she does. THEN I'll know what it feels like.
I think we are so alike. The two of us are clearly the type of people whom other people should never get to the wrong side of. (That, is another weird sentence. I can't think, I can't concentrate. Sorry.)
UGGGH. Bitch. BITCH. I normally don't dwell on things of the past. *cough* NORMALLY. This is an exception. I am too pissed. It wasn't just M & I. Apparently SOME other people got the same treatment. From you. So they ask me to not care about what you said, because it's just completely pointless. Fine. I accept the fact that I'll never quite live up to your expectations. Who actually can? We are just STUDENTS for God's sake. Stop asking so much of us.
Even the best of us make mistakes sometimes. Nobody's perfect. Don't ACT like you never did any wrong. I am sure you did. All the time. Just like all of us. It's ... nature?
AND YOUR ATTITUDE (yes I know, I KNOW I AM EQUALLY BAD but shut up let me just continue, this is the only way to deal with my anger my wrath my FURY)!!! What, is the fucking point of scowling and glaring at innocent people? WHAT?! Okay, I don't deny that I wasn't the innocent one. But what about them? Why glare at them?
Ugggh. I don't think I have been this rude before. Trust me, I never treat people I really detest with respect. If I do, it means I don't REALLY loathe them. I might feel a tiny bit of hatred towards them. Just a tiny bit.
Fine. END of all nonsense here. Because first. I can't really express my feelings. I still think my English sucks. Second. I want to edit the school concert photos. Third. It's a waste of breath. I am perfectly aware of that. But I still can't refrain myself from adding some nasty things about you. Damn. I really am horrible. When it comes to you.
And ....
Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.
I don't deserve all your kindness. I really don't.
**I especially want to thank Teacher TA. She was (is) sooo nice to me. "You can only speak normally around someone you feel comfortable with". Makes so much sense. Seeing that I am able to speak (more) normally around her and not around YOU. Eeek. I was at a constant loss for words while speaking to you.
I will never ever forget what you said to me while I was backstage. Thanks a lot. :)
(Eh sorry for the weird English. Arrgh how can I improve my English? Why do I suck in everything? I am such a sucky person. Eeeeee.)
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
7:59 PM
7:59 PM
♥ Saturday, July 18, 2009 ♥
Luck
18 July 2009
Wish me luck for tonight. Sigh. I hope it all ends quickly.
Mortification, here I come!
And screw BOTH of you. Stop pretending you know everything when you don't. Fuck you. I can never really respect you. What is there in you for me to respect? Nothing.
I learned my lesson. I should never ever take any notice of bastards like you. Let alone waste time crying over what you said. Stop forcing us to do things that are quite impossible to achieve. It's not you. It's us. You don't know how difficult it is.
Motherfucker.
Best not waste my time and energy to mull over all the details on that day. One thing. I should pretend you are invisible.
Wish me luck for tonight. Sigh. I hope it all ends quickly.
Mortification, here I come!
And screw BOTH of you. Stop pretending you know everything when you don't. Fuck you. I can never really respect you. What is there in you for me to respect? Nothing.
I learned my lesson. I should never ever take any notice of bastards like you. Let alone waste time crying over what you said. Stop forcing us to do things that are quite impossible to achieve. It's not you. It's us. You don't know how difficult it is.
Motherfucker.
Best not waste my time and energy to mull over all the details on that day. One thing. I should pretend you are invisible.
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
9:57 AM
9:57 AM
♥ Tuesday, July 14, 2009 ♥
Can I Say ...
14 July 2009
I watched Transformers two days ago! And I still can't get it out of my mind. If I am not so terribly broke I'd watch the movie again. And again. And again. And ag -
The movie was a tad predictable, but still super awesome!! Hmm. What else to say about this movie.
Megan Fox is very hot? Yeah, I know you are tired of hearing that. But she really is too gorgeous. Her sultry eyes. Her pouty lips. Her curvacious body. ESPECIALLY her body. *swoons*
Bumble Bee is very cute? Yes, you've probably heard that before.
Optimus Prime is very cool! *yawns*
And the perverse little Decepticon-turned-Autobot-who-humped-Mikaela's-legs is also very cute! Hahaha.
But then, many adults seemed to find the movie boring. My mom told me her colleague slept during the movie. Then Iris said that her family didn't know what was going on in the movie, you know, with all the quick transformations and the fighting between the good and the bad ....
**********
I am looking forward to the Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince movie!!
Although I expect the movie will be somewhat disappointing. The first three HP movies were fine, because I haven't read the books when I watched those. There were so many funny scenes and details (USUALLY involving Fred and George) in the books and not the movies.
Oh my God. Fred and George!!!! Fred. George. FRED. GEORGE. *screams*
**********
Today was a good day! Because I found out that I lost 0.5 kg! HAHA. No, it's not funny. And not exactly something to be proud of. Eeeek. At least I didn't put on weight. *coughs*
And I am soooo broke. I spent too much money this year. I still owe Chiew Na money for lunch at Sushi King that day. And I owe Jun Fang nuggets. Unfair! I remember her saying she would give me her vest for FREE. Just so you know, the vest I'm talking about is not the fancy kind, it's only the horrid one I have to wear for duty. Ugggh.
Only something rotten like that, and Jun Fang still insists that I treat her nuggets. BLEH!
Eeee I want coloured contact lenses! But I have no money. LOL. Never mind, I'll just have to start saving again.
And can I say I'm in love? Really. ;D
I watched Transformers two days ago! And I still can't get it out of my mind. If I am not so terribly broke I'd watch the movie again. And again. And again. And ag -
The movie was a tad predictable, but still super awesome!! Hmm. What else to say about this movie.
Megan Fox is very hot? Yeah, I know you are tired of hearing that. But she really is too gorgeous. Her sultry eyes. Her pouty lips. Her curvacious body. ESPECIALLY her body. *swoons*
Bumble Bee is very cute? Yes, you've probably heard that before.
Optimus Prime is very cool! *yawns*
And the perverse little Decepticon-turned-Autobot-who-humped-Mikaela's-legs is also very cute! Hahaha.
But then, many adults seemed to find the movie boring. My mom told me her colleague slept during the movie. Then Iris said that her family didn't know what was going on in the movie, you know, with all the quick transformations and the fighting between the good and the bad ....
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I am looking forward to the Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince movie!!
Although I expect the movie will be somewhat disappointing. The first three HP movies were fine, because I haven't read the books when I watched those. There were so many funny scenes and details (USUALLY involving Fred and George) in the books and not the movies.
Oh my God. Fred and George!!!! Fred. George. FRED. GEORGE. *screams*
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Today was a good day! Because I found out that I lost 0.5 kg! HAHA. No, it's not funny. And not exactly something to be proud of. Eeeek. At least I didn't put on weight. *coughs*
And I am soooo broke. I spent too much money this year. I still owe Chiew Na money for lunch at Sushi King that day. And I owe Jun Fang nuggets. Unfair! I remember her saying she would give me her vest for FREE. Just so you know, the vest I'm talking about is not the fancy kind, it's only the horrid one I have to wear for duty. Ugggh.
Only something rotten like that, and Jun Fang still insists that I treat her nuggets. BLEH!
Eeee I want coloured contact lenses! But I have no money. LOL. Never mind, I'll just have to start saving again.
And can I say I'm in love? Really. ;D
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
8:34 PM
8:34 PM
♥ Sunday, July 05, 2009 ♥
Chinese Orchestra Performance
21 June 2009
Nothing much to say about this day, so I'll just let the photos do the talking, and add a few photo captions here and there.
We assembled at school in the morning, then left for Dewan Sri by bus. Had rehearsals for the rest of the afternoon, had a horrible dinner of oily, greasy fried rice, changed and got ready, and then it was the actual concert.
Here are the photos!
Wait. Like I said before, the photos are mostly of my friends and I, and not the concert. Because most of the time we were backstage. And what can one do other than take photos while backstage?
(Sort of queer, seeing all those pros in our school auditorium)
Now, let me introduce the professionals and please, ignore the "there's nothing much to say about this day" thing. And skip this part if you want.
From the left.
The guy whose face is cut into half is Zhu Lin, the Erhu player.
The one wearing white is Qu Chun Quan, the famous conductor (that I didn't know about until people told me).
The one leaning against the stage is Li Bao Shun, the Gaohu player.
The one wearing maroon is Lim Sin Yeo, the Dizi performer. Very very pro. Actually, they all are. And sorry. Don't know what other word to use. Geng pops into my mind. But no. That word doesn't exist. Great sounds strange. Talented sounds like I'm his teacher or something. Very ... perfect? Kill me.
The one in black, holding the double bass, is obviously the double bass player. His name is Qu Feng (I think). Lee Mei loves him. She thinks he's cute. Haha. He is pretty cool. WHEN he plays his double bass. Especially that (all my friends from CO probably know which) part in the Terracotta Warriors Fantasia song.
The one wearing black in the photo above is everyone's favourite conductor besides Lai Sheng - Chew Keng How - we call him 周生!! He is sooo cute, and has such a great sense of humour. Hahaha. He makes everyone laugh, and makes the long-ass practices considerably less boring.
He and Lai Sheng are SO like a loving, married couple. HAHAHA. The way they talk to each other, talk ABOUT each other .... xD
This is Guo Chang Suo, the sheng player. Blower. Arrgh, however you say it.
Een Joe & I
HAHA I know you are sick of seeing our pretty faces too. No wait.
I should say : "HAHA I know you are sick of seeing MY pretty face." So there. Stupid Hui Min. xD
No matter. Rui Mei says you're pretty. And I think you're pretty too. Except that I'm prettier. Haha. Smack me.
That's my beloved Yi Ling. ;) And the filthy, stinky Meetoto (the tortoise). Eeeek.
Pei Qi & I
Eh. Can you tell that I had make up on my face? Not really noticeable right. RIGHT? Except that my skin looked smoother. And pinker. And my eyes slightly bigger. But they have always been that big. Hahaha smack me again.
Can someone sponsor me money for teeth whitening? Eeeek.
Don't ask.
Okay, I was actually dancing with 周生's coat. Yes, I have always been that mad.
NAH HUI MIN YOU ARE TALLER THAN ME, HAPPY NOW??!!
So she's taller and I'm prettier. Hahahaha. I should stop typing hahahaha. I know it's irritating.
Hsieh Ying & I
Now, she wasn't wearing any make up. But she looked as if she had. That is even more unfair. And she's taller than me.
Oh, by the way. Anyone can sponsor me money for a nose job? Besides for teeth whitening?
Gail with Qu Feng
Yes. The double bass player. The one Lee Mei loves. LOL.
LAI SHENG!!!
Okay. I think that's it.
Although we made some mistakes during the concert, overall, it was still terrific (I HOPE) and I hope we'll have the chance to ... cooperate with the professionals again.
Oh wait let me say it : I sat behind him!!
Got whiffs of cigarette smoke. Yuck. I hate smokers. But he is so ..... pro. But still. I hate smokers. Most of the pros smoke. Must have something to do with their talent in music. Oh well.
Hopefully I didn't bore you to death with this tedious post where you have to see my face in almost every single photo I posted. Sorry. ;D
And I realise that I have seriously horrible eyebags. But then I'd probably look very weird without my eyebags. Okay. Whatever I say, it still won't change anything.
So I better go to bed now, and dream about how awesome it's going to be tomorrow, since our Chemistry teacher won't be present. HAHAHA. Yes. And I'm going to miss Malay again. Whoopee. Except that THAT won't be my reaction when I find out about my Malay results during the next exam. Heh.
Nothing much to say about this day, so I'll just let the photos do the talking, and add a few photo captions here and there.
We assembled at school in the morning, then left for Dewan Sri by bus. Had rehearsals for the rest of the afternoon, had a horrible dinner of oily, greasy fried rice, changed and got ready, and then it was the actual concert.
Here are the photos!
Wait. Like I said before, the photos are mostly of my friends and I, and not the concert. Because most of the time we were backstage. And what can one do other than take photos while backstage?
(Sort of queer, seeing all those pros in our school auditorium)
Now, let me introduce the professionals and please, ignore the "there's nothing much to say about this day" thing. And skip this part if you want.
From the left.
The guy whose face is cut into half is Zhu Lin, the Erhu player.
The one wearing white is Qu Chun Quan, the famous conductor (that I didn't know about until people told me).
The one leaning against the stage is Li Bao Shun, the Gaohu player.
The one wearing maroon is Lim Sin Yeo, the Dizi performer. Very very pro. Actually, they all are. And sorry. Don't know what other word to use. Geng pops into my mind. But no. That word doesn't exist. Great sounds strange. Talented sounds like I'm his teacher or something. Very ... perfect? Kill me.
The one in black, holding the double bass, is obviously the double bass player. His name is Qu Feng (I think). Lee Mei loves him. She thinks he's cute. Haha. He is pretty cool. WHEN he plays his double bass. Especially that (all my friends from CO probably know which) part in the Terracotta Warriors Fantasia song.
The one wearing black in the photo above is everyone's favourite conductor besides Lai Sheng - Chew Keng How - we call him 周生!! He is sooo cute, and has such a great sense of humour. Hahaha. He makes everyone laugh, and makes the long-ass practices considerably less boring.
He and Lai Sheng are SO like a loving, married couple. HAHAHA. The way they talk to each other, talk ABOUT each other .... xD
This is Guo Chang Suo, the sheng player. Blower. Arrgh, however you say it.
Een Joe & I
HAHA I know you are sick of seeing our pretty faces too. No wait.
I should say : "HAHA I know you are sick of seeing MY pretty face." So there. Stupid Hui Min. xD
No matter. Rui Mei says you're pretty. And I think you're pretty too. Except that I'm prettier. Haha. Smack me.
That's my beloved Yi Ling. ;) And the filthy, stinky Meetoto (the tortoise). Eeeek.
Pei Qi & I
Eh. Can you tell that I had make up on my face? Not really noticeable right. RIGHT? Except that my skin looked smoother. And pinker. And my eyes slightly bigger. But they have always been that big. Hahaha smack me again.
Can someone sponsor me money for teeth whitening? Eeeek.
Don't ask.
Okay, I was actually dancing with 周生's coat. Yes, I have always been that mad.
NAH HUI MIN YOU ARE TALLER THAN ME, HAPPY NOW??!!
So she's taller and I'm prettier. Hahahaha. I should stop typing hahahaha. I know it's irritating.
Hsieh Ying & I
Now, she wasn't wearing any make up. But she looked as if she had. That is even more unfair. And she's taller than me.
Oh, by the way. Anyone can sponsor me money for a nose job? Besides for teeth whitening?
Gail with Qu Feng
Yes. The double bass player. The one Lee Mei loves. LOL.
LAI SHENG!!!
Okay. I think that's it.
Although we made some mistakes during the concert, overall, it was still terrific (I HOPE) and I hope we'll have the chance to ... cooperate with the professionals again.
Oh wait let me say it : I sat behind him!!
Got whiffs of cigarette smoke. Yuck. I hate smokers. But he is so ..... pro. But still. I hate smokers. Most of the pros smoke. Must have something to do with their talent in music. Oh well.
Hopefully I didn't bore you to death with this tedious post where you have to see my face in almost every single photo I posted. Sorry. ;D
And I realise that I have seriously horrible eyebags. But then I'd probably look very weird without my eyebags. Okay. Whatever I say, it still won't change anything.
So I better go to bed now, and dream about how awesome it's going to be tomorrow, since our Chemistry teacher won't be present. HAHAHA. Yes. And I'm going to miss Malay again. Whoopee. Except that THAT won't be my reaction when I find out about my Malay results during the next exam. Heh.
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
9:32 PM
9:32 PM