23 March 2009

Three more agonizing days to go.

Monday a.k.a The Day I Actually Feel Like Dying

English was not too (too TOO, you know) hard, and not too easy. Made stupid mistakes. Pfft. The subjective questions are quite difficult. Especially literature. =(

Chemistry was easier than expected. But you know lah, whenever you think that an exam paper is easy, the results always turn out like crap.

Moral = DEAD. I think I'm gonna score a grand total of zero for my essay. Great.

Tuesday a.k.a The Day Death Starts to Approach Me :

Physics, I have decided, is a subject that I hate and dislike (which means, not really liking it but not hating it too). Sigh.

Malay. Need I say anything else?

Modern Maths. Maths. I guess I don't need to say anything else too.

Wednesday a.k.a The Day I Shall Actually Die

History. HISTORY, goddammit.

Chinese. My most-hated subject. So many things to memorise, but of course I haven't memorised a thing.

I feel so ... lousy all of a sudden. I suck in Chinese, I suck in Malay and I'm not really good in English as well. Geeeee. I better learn Tamil or something. I might be really good at it, you never know. Useless eh?

Add Maths. Oh God. OH GOD.

Thursday a.k.a The Official First Day of Life in Hell

Biology. I haven't studied a thing for Biology. Really. Well, maybe two pages, but that doesn't change a thing. Stupid amoeba. Stupid paramecium. And to think I used to love drawing the paramecium on my exam papers back in Form 1 because they look so cute.

Civics. *yawn*

Wish me luck. I think I'm gonna give up on Biology. Or Civics. Or both. Plus History. I feel so tired, and I'd love to sink into the soft sheets of my bed, hide under the duvet until the exams are over, but I must study. God, please deliver me some decent coffee that can keep me awake for hours. Arrrgh. Save me. SAVE ME.

I feel so depressed.

Honestly, my life sucks. You know what, I fell down again when I went to the beach. Slid on some slippery seaweed on the rocks, and plop! Bumped my hip, (why not just bump my head and let me lose my memory, die, or something?) grazed my knee and elbow. Mortifying as well, but what to do? Sigh. I had to restrain myself from bursting into tears, had to put on my best "I-don't-give-a-damn" expression when all I wanted to do was to kill myself.

I am soooo accident-prone this year. Looks like it's gonna be a year full of accidents ... and mirthfulness.

Good news : I might be going on a cruise again! To Phuket, maybe. Superstar Virgo, I am coming for youuu! And hopefully I will be able to go to KL in June, and Singapore in November or December. I am fervently hoping that all the above will actually happen. In reality. Not in my dreams.

I know I should be studying (predictably there is a book in my lap, but my eyes are glued to the computer screen) but frankly, I am so sick of it. Who isn't? I have to keep repeating this in my mind : IT IS JUST A FUCKING TEST.

Sigh.

Oh, and I miss my old class E3B damn much. =(

Hugs.