♥ Tuesday, January 27, 2009 ♥
Chinese New Year
27 January 2009
It sucks.
I don't know why, but everything seems inexplicably tedious and dull this year. Last year's CNY was great. This year ... *sigh* Even thinking about the money I got can't cheer me up. (Will it cheer you up if you found out that you got at least RM150 less than last year? Bah.)
I didn't take much photos. Didn't do anything much except eat, sleep, eat more, and read Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (for the second time). Oh, I love the HP books. They (especially the last book) make me cry. And books seldom make me cry.
Anyway, saw the Confessions of a Shopaholic trailer. I can't wait!!
Isla Fisher is so gorgeous!! And cute. I think she makes the perfect Becky Bloomwood. I think Luke is cute too! =D But Suze is all wrong. Firstly, and lastly, she has black hair. Which is tantamount (this is a stupid word, and I know it's not exactly right to use the word here) to WRONG WRONG WRONG.
Watched Inkheart just now. I like Dustfinger!! He's hot. LOL. Typical. Ee Leng and I err, giggled when we saw his naked torso. He has a great body!! xD
Sigh I so like angmoh guys. And girls.
Going out shopping tomorrow! Yay. Time to spend some hard-earned money. Yeah. Hard-earned. Right.
Went hiking/climbing hills (not mountains) at Youth Park. Oh, I feel so proud of myself. Went to the No.5 Stop, or whatever you call it. It is quite an achievement for someone like me! I didn't puke, or even feel like puking. Just felt extremely exhausted while climbing those horrible stairs. Stairway to Hell.
In the afternoon, went to my cousin's house. Had a magnificent lunch, and after that, continued reading HP and at the same time listened to my cousin and my sister rambling on about whose thighs are fatter (oh, an elephant's! No, a dinosaur's!) when they know perfectly well that they don't have super fat thighs ; rolled my eyes as conspicuously as I could, twice, then went to the toilet to avoid hearing them talking about the stupid subject (oh, it's definitely one of their favourite topics), and came back only to find that they are still talking about their thighs.
How fascinating.
Watched the lion dance thing. It was LOUD. At least, the crackers were. Ouch. Blasted my eardrums into ... um, smithereens. Uggh.
Going to another cousin's house tomorrow night. Oh, fireworks, here I come ...
Better hope I am in a good mood so that I will take many photos and upload them!
So in other words, you better hope that I don't hear my cousin talking about her fat thighs or whatever part of her body, or hear her giving fucking "compliments" (oh, you are so slim and I am so fat! No, I am so ugly, you are prettier!) or those false, flattering comments she always gives. It is so fake! Makes herself seem like a desperate person seeking for flattering comments, by giving them out so that he/she can get them back.
A normal, polite person will normally reply to a "No, I am so ugly, you are prettier!" comment with a "No, no, you are very pretty too!".
And an impolite, rude person like me will roll his/her eyes. I know rolling eyes are irritating, but I don't really find fake compliments particularly nonirritating either.
Oh, my fucking sister fucking stepped on my pretty new (WHITE) wedges at Sushi King just now. I didn't really noticed what I was doing, and maybe I accidentally stepped on her foot. Then she stepped back on my foot on purpose, and sigh, now my white shoes are dirty. Fuck her. I don't give a fucking damn if she scolded me or strangled me right there, but stepping on my precious SHOES???! It was only the second fucking time I wore those shoes okay.
If I don't manage to clean the shoes, she will have to fucking pay. Spiteful thing. If I purposely stepped on her foot then I wouldn't have minded her stepping back on mine. That's just a natural reaction, the right thing to do.
IT WAS A FUCKING ACCIDENT!!!!!!!!
I am so furious. And I am feeling unusually dizzy. I am going to bed!
Goodnight!!!
It sucks.
I don't know why, but everything seems inexplicably tedious and dull this year. Last year's CNY was great. This year ... *sigh* Even thinking about the money I got can't cheer me up. (Will it cheer you up if you found out that you got at least RM150 less than last year? Bah.)
I didn't take much photos. Didn't do anything much except eat, sleep, eat more, and read Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (for the second time). Oh, I love the HP books. They (especially the last book) make me cry. And books seldom make me cry.
Anyway, saw the Confessions of a Shopaholic trailer. I can't wait!!
Isla Fisher is so gorgeous!! And cute. I think she makes the perfect Becky Bloomwood. I think Luke is cute too! =D But Suze is all wrong. Firstly, and lastly, she has black hair. Which is tantamount (this is a stupid word, and I know it's not exactly right to use the word here) to WRONG WRONG WRONG.
Watched Inkheart just now. I like Dustfinger!! He's hot. LOL. Typical. Ee Leng and I err, giggled when we saw his naked torso. He has a great body!! xD
Sigh I so like angmoh guys. And girls.
Going out shopping tomorrow! Yay. Time to spend some hard-earned money. Yeah. Hard-earned. Right.
Went hiking/climbing hills (not mountains) at Youth Park. Oh, I feel so proud of myself. Went to the No.5 Stop, or whatever you call it. It is quite an achievement for someone like me! I didn't puke, or even feel like puking. Just felt extremely exhausted while climbing those horrible stairs. Stairway to Hell.
In the afternoon, went to my cousin's house. Had a magnificent lunch, and after that, continued reading HP and at the same time listened to my cousin and my sister rambling on about whose thighs are fatter (oh, an elephant's! No, a dinosaur's!) when they know perfectly well that they don't have super fat thighs ; rolled my eyes as conspicuously as I could, twice, then went to the toilet to avoid hearing them talking about the stupid subject (oh, it's definitely one of their favourite topics), and came back only to find that they are still talking about their thighs.
How fascinating.
Watched the lion dance thing. It was LOUD. At least, the crackers were. Ouch. Blasted my eardrums into ... um, smithereens. Uggh.
Going to another cousin's house tomorrow night. Oh, fireworks, here I come ...
Better hope I am in a good mood so that I will take many photos and upload them!
So in other words, you better hope that I don't hear my cousin talking about her fat thighs or whatever part of her body, or hear her giving fucking "compliments" (oh, you are so slim and I am so fat! No, I am so ugly, you are prettier!) or those false, flattering comments she always gives. It is so fake! Makes herself seem like a desperate person seeking for flattering comments, by giving them out so that he/she can get them back.
A normal, polite person will normally reply to a "No, I am so ugly, you are prettier!" comment with a "No, no, you are very pretty too!".
And an impolite, rude person like me will roll his/her eyes. I know rolling eyes are irritating, but I don't really find fake compliments particularly nonirritating either.
Oh, my fucking sister fucking stepped on my pretty new (WHITE) wedges at Sushi King just now. I didn't really noticed what I was doing, and maybe I accidentally stepped on her foot. Then she stepped back on my foot on purpose, and sigh, now my white shoes are dirty. Fuck her. I don't give a fucking damn if she scolded me or strangled me right there, but stepping on my precious SHOES???! It was only the second fucking time I wore those shoes okay.
If I don't manage to clean the shoes, she will have to fucking pay. Spiteful thing. If I purposely stepped on her foot then I wouldn't have minded her stepping back on mine. That's just a natural reaction, the right thing to do.
IT WAS A FUCKING ACCIDENT!!!!!!!!
I am so furious. And I am feeling unusually dizzy. I am going to bed!
Goodnight!!!
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
11:19 PM
11:19 PM
♥ Wednesday, January 21, 2009 ♥
Onions, Cheeks or Stars?
21 January 2009
I was so happy and relieved, for a second. Then I lapsed back into miserableness.
So what if I finished the 1000-word essay? (1119 words, no less)
I have to pass up another Malay essay on Friday. What the fuck.
And Chinese New Year. What is it? Is it still something to celebrate about? When you always have such a crazy amount of homework?? An English essay with the title "Dad's Done It!". I think it is quite hard. Because I think our teacher is thinking more along the lines of "Dad's done it!! He has become the president of USA!!!", something all deep and hard like that ...
Was wondering if the essay can be negative. Like, dad's done it this time, he cracked the toilet bowl for the umpteenth time. I really feel like writing negative stuff right now. Because I don't feel very positive, in other words, optimistic, right now.
For a pessimist, I'm pretty optimistic ... It's a nice song! But I'm not the slightest bit optimistic. =(
I have another Chinese essay. Insane huh.
I have about 6 Moral projects. Not all of them are due straight after CNY, but still ...
I have to write fucking Chinese calligraphy. I HATE MY CHINESE TEACHER. Why the hell must he give us so many homework? It's the small type of calligraphy ... two or three fucking pages of stupid, complicated Chinese words that I don't understand. What a wonderful world.
I have to memorise Chemistry stuff. John Dalton, J.J Thomson, Ernest Rutherford ... stuff like that. Honestly, what's the difference between Chemistry (and Biology) and History? Except that Chemistry and Biology are in English.
I have Civics homework too.
Oh, I can't wait to see what other homeworks we're gonna get. Anticipations. HAH. Fuck.
Carried out experiments during Biology just now. Onion cells and cheek cells. Sigh, I should have accidentally killed myself when I was trying to scrape out the cheek cells from my mouth. Uggh. Or I should have jammed the whole damn onion down my throat, suffocate, then die.
Or I should follow Rui Mei's steps. She is "hugging the sky" now. I told her not to accidentally eat the stars because they are very pretty. (Lame, I know) But she said, maybe she should eat them, because she wants to die also. Sigh.
I'm sooo fucking glad I have Rui Mei, Iris and Ning Zhen with me in this class.
I was so happy and relieved, for a second. Then I lapsed back into miserableness.
So what if I finished the 1000-word essay? (1119 words, no less)
I have to pass up another Malay essay on Friday. What the fuck.
And Chinese New Year. What is it? Is it still something to celebrate about? When you always have such a crazy amount of homework?? An English essay with the title "Dad's Done It!". I think it is quite hard. Because I think our teacher is thinking more along the lines of "Dad's done it!! He has become the president of USA!!!", something all deep and hard like that ...
Was wondering if the essay can be negative. Like, dad's done it this time, he cracked the toilet bowl for the umpteenth time. I really feel like writing negative stuff right now. Because I don't feel very positive, in other words, optimistic, right now.
For a pessimist, I'm pretty optimistic ... It's a nice song! But I'm not the slightest bit optimistic. =(
I have another Chinese essay. Insane huh.
I have about 6 Moral projects. Not all of them are due straight after CNY, but still ...
I have to write fucking Chinese calligraphy. I HATE MY CHINESE TEACHER. Why the hell must he give us so many homework? It's the small type of calligraphy ... two or three fucking pages of stupid, complicated Chinese words that I don't understand. What a wonderful world.
I have to memorise Chemistry stuff. John Dalton, J.J Thomson, Ernest Rutherford ... stuff like that. Honestly, what's the difference between Chemistry (and Biology) and History? Except that Chemistry and Biology are in English.
I have Civics homework too.
Oh, I can't wait to see what other homeworks we're gonna get. Anticipations. HAH. Fuck.
Carried out experiments during Biology just now. Onion cells and cheek cells. Sigh, I should have accidentally killed myself when I was trying to scrape out the cheek cells from my mouth. Uggh. Or I should have jammed the whole damn onion down my throat, suffocate, then die.
Or I should follow Rui Mei's steps. She is "hugging the sky" now. I told her not to accidentally eat the stars because they are very pretty. (Lame, I know) But she said, maybe she should eat them, because she wants to die also. Sigh.
I'm sooo fucking glad I have Rui Mei, Iris and Ning Zhen with me in this class.
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
11:32 PM
11:32 PM
♥ Tuesday, January 20, 2009 ♥
Peace ....
20 January 2009
I guess the word "peace" will never ever appear in my dictionary.
WHEN CAN I EVER FUCKING GET PEACE??
The mornings that I can stay in and not go to school early are so rare. It sucks, but that's just the way it is. I'd like to have spent a serene, pleasant morning at home.
Then some fucking thing must happen to break the peace.
After a truly satisfying breakfast of my favorite Cinnamon Rolls, I went to play the piano. I was feeling all calm and contented, so glad that I can finally stay in. Third week of school already and this is only the second day I did not go to school early. Transportation problems. This suck-y life will probably last until ... February, perhaps.
I can at least go to school late on Tuesdays and Fridays. The other days I HAVE to go early .....
Suddenly the stupid doorbell rang. Once. Twice. I was on my way press the button for the gate to open when the doorbell rang at least four more times. HELLO, I HEARD YOU, I AM NOT FUCKING DEAF OKAY?!??!
It was my aunt. And my uncle. And my grandmother. Peace-breakers.
Well, maybe my aunt finds the doorbell thing extremely intriguing. Maybe she has never really seen anything like that before. Even though she came to our house plenty of times already.
I never find them particularly irritating until today. Damn. I had to go carry all my grandmother's stuff. Then when I asked my uncle if I can close the gate already, he said yeah. When I glanced outside, his fucking car door is still open. (His car was parked outside) Was so fucking tempted to just close the gate and leave his car door open for everyone.
Then I disappeared upstairs. Trying to use the computer PEACEFULLY but then my aunt, my grandmother, they all started calling me. Calling me to call my mother. For them. Don't they KNOW how to use a fucking telephone? Or they don't know her handphone number?? Pretty unlikely. But judging by their age I suppose it IS likely after all.
Errrgh.
I know it's not much. But like I said, THIS MORNING IS FUCKING ... VALUABLE TO ME.
*inhales deeply*
I hate Tuesdays. I have so many text books to bring. This is pure madness. Add Maths (thick.). Physics Text Book and Practical Book (both are thin but put together, they're still thick). English. Modern Maths. Civics. Chemistry Exercise Book (so thick for an exercise book) and I am not sure whether I am supposed to bring the Chemistry Text Book and Practical Book or not.
WHAT THE FUCKKK.
How am I supposed to go through one year, ONE WHOLE YEAR of that??!?
Oh, good news. The first school exam is ... the first day after the holidays in March. Thanks. Thanks a bunch for ruining my holidays.
Oh, another good news. Our school has officially gone mad. Not that it wasn't mad before but this time ...
The fucking doorbell is ringing again. Who. The. FUCK. IS. THAT??!? Ignore it. Ignore it. Let those people downstairs see to whoever it is at the door.
Well, our school. New rules! Guess what? Lingerie. Must not wear bras with bright, obvious colours. Like red or purple. And we must not wear bras that tie at the neck.
This is CRAP. What, so are they going to rip open your school uniform to see what type of bra you are wearing?? It is so fucking crazy.
I guess the word "peace" will never ever appear in my dictionary.
WHEN CAN I EVER FUCKING GET PEACE??
The mornings that I can stay in and not go to school early are so rare. It sucks, but that's just the way it is. I'd like to have spent a serene, pleasant morning at home.
Then some fucking thing must happen to break the peace.
After a truly satisfying breakfast of my favorite Cinnamon Rolls, I went to play the piano. I was feeling all calm and contented, so glad that I can finally stay in. Third week of school already and this is only the second day I did not go to school early. Transportation problems. This suck-y life will probably last until ... February, perhaps.
I can at least go to school late on Tuesdays and Fridays. The other days I HAVE to go early .....
Suddenly the stupid doorbell rang. Once. Twice. I was on my way press the button for the gate to open when the doorbell rang at least four more times. HELLO, I HEARD YOU, I AM NOT FUCKING DEAF OKAY?!??!
It was my aunt. And my uncle. And my grandmother. Peace-breakers.
Well, maybe my aunt finds the doorbell thing extremely intriguing. Maybe she has never really seen anything like that before. Even though she came to our house plenty of times already.
I never find them particularly irritating until today. Damn. I had to go carry all my grandmother's stuff. Then when I asked my uncle if I can close the gate already, he said yeah. When I glanced outside, his fucking car door is still open. (His car was parked outside) Was so fucking tempted to just close the gate and leave his car door open for everyone.
Then I disappeared upstairs. Trying to use the computer PEACEFULLY but then my aunt, my grandmother, they all started calling me. Calling me to call my mother. For them. Don't they KNOW how to use a fucking telephone? Or they don't know her handphone number?? Pretty unlikely. But judging by their age I suppose it IS likely after all.
Errrgh.
I know it's not much. But like I said, THIS MORNING IS FUCKING ... VALUABLE TO ME.
*inhales deeply*
I hate Tuesdays. I have so many text books to bring. This is pure madness. Add Maths (thick.). Physics Text Book and Practical Book (both are thin but put together, they're still thick). English. Modern Maths. Civics. Chemistry Exercise Book (so thick for an exercise book) and I am not sure whether I am supposed to bring the Chemistry Text Book and Practical Book or not.
WHAT THE FUCKKK.
How am I supposed to go through one year, ONE WHOLE YEAR of that??!?
Oh, good news. The first school exam is ... the first day after the holidays in March. Thanks. Thanks a bunch for ruining my holidays.
Oh, another good news. Our school has officially gone mad. Not that it wasn't mad before but this time ...
The fucking doorbell is ringing again. Who. The. FUCK. IS. THAT??!? Ignore it. Ignore it. Let those people downstairs see to whoever it is at the door.
Well, our school. New rules! Guess what? Lingerie. Must not wear bras with bright, obvious colours. Like red or purple. And we must not wear bras that tie at the neck.
This is CRAP. What, so are they going to rip open your school uniform to see what type of bra you are wearing?? It is so fucking crazy.
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
10:21 AM
10:21 AM
♥ Sunday, January 18, 2009 ♥
Until You ~
18 January 2009
I changed the song in my blog to :
1. Until You - Shayne Ward
2. Untouched - The Veronicas
3. Sum 41 - With Me
4. Sober - Pink
5. Stacy's Mom - Fountains of Wayne
6. So Hot - Wonder Girls (Korean Song)
Coincidentally, all the titles of the songs start with U and S.
Many of them are old songs, but who cares. I only just discovered them.
I LOVE THE SONG UNTIL YOU!!!!
I honestly feel like weeping every time I listen to the song, especially the "I don't wanna run away, just wanna make your day" part~ A particular image keeps popping into my mind whenever I hear that part, then I will feel like crying. Why is life so unfair? *heart breaks*
Emo-ing. For the first time in my life. This is so not me.
But I can't help it!! Especially not when I keep listening to tear-inducing songs. I don't know. Maybe it's Shayne Ward's angelic, out-of-this-world voice that makes me so depressed. Almost all of his songs are awesome. If you like slow songs, that is.
I like Damaged (I'm like SO damaged too, because of you) and Breathless!! There's that song A Better Man, which is completely sweet. But one should not listen to it too much for fear of falling asleep.
I have to push that image out of my mind. But it's so hard. Okay, fine. That's probably because I'm still listening to the song.
STOP FUCKING HAUNTING ME, IMAGE!! IT'S SO ... DISCONCERTING!!
Okay. I just changed songs. Listening to "Paramore - Crushcrushcrush" now. Oh, I love that song. And I love Misery Business too. And Fences (It's so obvious I'm dying, dying). And That's What You Get. Bah. I love so many songs.
I LIKE THE VERONICAS!! Their songs are so cool. Like Untouched. Popular. 4ever. Everything I'm Not. When it all Falls Apart. Etc.
I know this post is as boring as a .... fish. Unless if you like fishes. Well, since this blog entry is posted at around 11:38 P.M, think of it this way - it is the perfect post to make you fall asleep!!
Anyway. More songs I love (like you want to know) except for the ones I listed out above :
1. The All-American Rejects - Gives You Hell
(When you see my face, hope it fucking gives you hell~~)
2. Taylor Swift - Fearless
(Oh, Taylor is so cute! Loved this song for some time already)
3. Until You - Shayne Ward
(Sorry, I just have to repeat it again. And again.)
4. Pussycat Dolls - I Hate This Part
(I see sunset in your eyes ... *burst into tears*)
5. Boyzone - Love You Anyway
(Such a cute song. It's unbelievably hard to love you, but I love you anyway. Aww.)
6. Britney Spears - Circus
(Britney's back!!! ;D)
7. Alone - Avril Lavigne
(Loved this for like decades, centuries already. Avril rocks.)
8. Decode - Paramore
(Twilight!! The truth is hiding in your eyes, hanging on your tongue, boiling in my blood ...)
Asleep yet? ;P
HAHAHAAH! (Don't ask why I'm laughing because I don't know the reason myself) I will try not to think of that image tonight. But there's that other image. Yesterday night. Horrifying. I dreamt of something so impossible, so unbelievable (yet so believable), and so ... enjoyable. Sounds a bit ... wrong, eh?
Eh how is it I can FEEL things in my sleep?
Sigh, how I'd like that dream to come true. Reality sucks. The dream? It revolved around a ... I don't know what it was. A school trip. Or maybe not a school trip. But there were many people from our school in that dream. And there was a huge, magnificent mansion. Where we were staying I suppose. No classes. No homework. No strange History teachers.
It was such a wonderful dream ....
Have to go to school tomorrow ... The weekend seemed so short, because we all had school yesterday. Pfft.
Oh, a totally random thing : I suddenly love the colour red. It's so ... so brilliant, so sexy, so .... ostentatious .... I know Ee Leng loves red heels!! They're hot!! IF you can pull it off.
Time for bed!! I want someone to hug~ =(
I don't wanna run away, just wanna make your day,
When you feel the world is on your shoulders ...
I don't wanna make it worse, just wanna make us work,
Baby, tell me, I will do whatever ~
Feels like nobody ever knew me until you knew me ...
Feels like nobody ever loved me until you loved me ...
Feels like nobody ever touched me until you touched me ...
Baby, nobody, nobody until you ~
I changed the song in my blog to :
1. Until You - Shayne Ward
2. Untouched - The Veronicas
3. Sum 41 - With Me
4. Sober - Pink
5. Stacy's Mom - Fountains of Wayne
6. So Hot - Wonder Girls (Korean Song)
Coincidentally, all the titles of the songs start with U and S.
Many of them are old songs, but who cares. I only just discovered them.
I LOVE THE SONG UNTIL YOU!!!!
I honestly feel like weeping every time I listen to the song, especially the "I don't wanna run away, just wanna make your day" part~ A particular image keeps popping into my mind whenever I hear that part, then I will feel like crying. Why is life so unfair? *heart breaks*
Emo-ing. For the first time in my life. This is so not me.
But I can't help it!! Especially not when I keep listening to tear-inducing songs. I don't know. Maybe it's Shayne Ward's angelic, out-of-this-world voice that makes me so depressed. Almost all of his songs are awesome. If you like slow songs, that is.
I like Damaged (I'm like SO damaged too, because of you) and Breathless!! There's that song A Better Man, which is completely sweet. But one should not listen to it too much for fear of falling asleep.
I have to push that image out of my mind. But it's so hard. Okay, fine. That's probably because I'm still listening to the song.
STOP FUCKING HAUNTING ME, IMAGE!! IT'S SO ... DISCONCERTING!!
Okay. I just changed songs. Listening to "Paramore - Crushcrushcrush" now. Oh, I love that song. And I love Misery Business too. And Fences (It's so obvious I'm dying, dying). And That's What You Get. Bah. I love so many songs.
I LIKE THE VERONICAS!! Their songs are so cool. Like Untouched. Popular. 4ever. Everything I'm Not. When it all Falls Apart. Etc.
I know this post is as boring as a .... fish. Unless if you like fishes. Well, since this blog entry is posted at around 11:38 P.M, think of it this way - it is the perfect post to make you fall asleep!!
Anyway. More songs I love (like you want to know) except for the ones I listed out above :
1. The All-American Rejects - Gives You Hell
(When you see my face, hope it fucking gives you hell~~)
2. Taylor Swift - Fearless
(Oh, Taylor is so cute! Loved this song for some time already)
3. Until You - Shayne Ward
(Sorry, I just have to repeat it again. And again.)
4. Pussycat Dolls - I Hate This Part
(I see sunset in your eyes ... *burst into tears*)
5. Boyzone - Love You Anyway
(Such a cute song. It's unbelievably hard to love you, but I love you anyway. Aww.)
6. Britney Spears - Circus
(Britney's back!!! ;D)
7. Alone - Avril Lavigne
(Loved this for like decades, centuries already. Avril rocks.)
8. Decode - Paramore
(Twilight!! The truth is hiding in your eyes, hanging on your tongue, boiling in my blood ...)
Asleep yet? ;P
HAHAHAAH! (Don't ask why I'm laughing because I don't know the reason myself) I will try not to think of that image tonight. But there's that other image. Yesterday night. Horrifying. I dreamt of something so impossible, so unbelievable (yet so believable), and so ... enjoyable. Sounds a bit ... wrong, eh?
Eh how is it I can FEEL things in my sleep?
Sigh, how I'd like that dream to come true. Reality sucks. The dream? It revolved around a ... I don't know what it was. A school trip. Or maybe not a school trip. But there were many people from our school in that dream. And there was a huge, magnificent mansion. Where we were staying I suppose. No classes. No homework. No strange History teachers.
It was such a wonderful dream ....
Have to go to school tomorrow ... The weekend seemed so short, because we all had school yesterday. Pfft.
Oh, a totally random thing : I suddenly love the colour red. It's so ... so brilliant, so sexy, so .... ostentatious .... I know Ee Leng loves red heels!! They're hot!! IF you can pull it off.
Time for bed!! I want someone to hug~ =(
I don't wanna run away, just wanna make your day,
When you feel the world is on your shoulders ...
I don't wanna make it worse, just wanna make us work,
Baby, tell me, I will do whatever ~
Feels like nobody ever knew me until you knew me ...
Feels like nobody ever loved me until you loved me ...
Feels like nobody ever touched me until you touched me ...
Baby, nobody, nobody until you ~
(Yeah, yeah, I'm listening to the song again. Like I said, I can't help it. The forces of attraction between the song and I are too strong .... just like particles in a solid state ... God I hate Chemistry ... )
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
11:09 PM
11:09 PM
♥ Thursday, January 15, 2009 ♥
Random
15 January 2009
LONG POST : RANTING, PRATTLING, BABBLING, BLABBING .....
Damn. I really don't like being in Form 4.
There's nothing good about being a Form 4 student. Nothing at all. Especially not when you have to write essays with 1000 words.
I have insane piles of homework to do. One after another, all from our stupid Chinese teacher. (It rhymes. Perfect.)
We haven't even passed up the first essay and the teacher already gave us another one. Like one fucking essay isn't enough?
Sigh. I am so confused right now!! Everything really is so different.
Choosing the Science stream was not a good idea. It's crazy. Are we supposed to cope with Physics, Biology and Chemistry all at once? (Well obviously we are, but still ...)
Hellooo, it's only the second week of school, and already the pressure is on. I feel stressed. I'm worried about the exams. Worried about how many subjects I will fail. Chinese. Malay. Physics. Add Maths.
How can I NOT fail Add Maths? My sister failed the subject. Once. MY SISTER. People who know my sister will understand my ... err, pessimistic attitude.
Thank goodness I made the decision to attend the Add Maths tuition with Rui Mei and Ning Zhen. My first ever (real) tuition class.
I used to go to a school teacher's house last year, and she taught us Science. I feel like laughing my head off whenever I think about it. What the FUCK did I attend the tuition for? It seems so totally unnecessary right now. Science. It is such an easy subject. Compared to the mad subjects we have this year.
Our Add Maths teacher at school, she sucks. Okay, she's a very nice person, but honestly, the way she teaches .... I don't think many of us understood what she said in class. Plus the way she dresses is a big, biggg distraction.
When she stepped into class today, I said, "Ahhh, today is Hari Raya hor!!" and Rui Mei started signing "Selamat Hari Raya". Which led me to throwing a note with "Selamat Hari Raya!!" to her, and in the end, when the note came back to me, there was a sketch of the teacher's head. Which was totally not similar to the actual person. And I continued drawing the teacher's body. A bit distorted, but couldn't help it.
And the four of us couldn't stop sniggering.
And no, she's not a Malay. It's just that every month on the 15th the teachers need to wear clothes with batik-prints. And extraordinarily our Add Maths teacher was the only one who reminded us of Hari Raya.
Our History teacher, I don't even want to start. She's HILARIOUS. Not in a good way. I don't want to describe her, and her classes. I already did so to Iris at school. In front of another teacher. And we all cracked up. I know that was rude and completely mean. But who cares lah.
Sigggh. Back to tuitions. I don't really like them! Sometimes they are just so boring. Actually, today was just my second time attending a tuition class. So it means that they aren't just boring sometimes, they're always boring. But what can I do?? I don't want to get lousy results for every subject ...
And I know having a sister, just a year older, and studying in the same school is a good thing - she can tell you what to expect in the exams, etc - but arrgh, I so hate the teachers comparing us. Because basically she's the good sister, with good results and all, and I'm the bad (not really bad, just not as good as her) sister.
Example : She's in the fifth year at school already and she has NEVER been demerited. And I get demerited on the first day back to school.
Get what I mean? The teachers always say : Oh, her sister is a very good student!! Blah blah blah.
Not that I really care, because being like her is one of the last things I want in the world. I never ever want to be such a goody-goody like her. Oh, no. It'd take all the fun out of life. Sigh, it's annoying enough already, with so many people saying that we LOOK alike. When we don't. Not really. Nooooo. I don't want to be like her.
But everyone who knows us both knows that we have very different personalities. They all say I'm ... crazier. *snorts* Well, actually, I suppose I am. Haaaa. Good to see there's a difference. Yi Ling says I am more childish. Damn.
Anyway. I am extremely busy these days. Extremely busy, but of course there's still time to use the computer. Of course. I don't feel like doing my homework, especially not the "Hug the Sky" essay. Someone help me. SOMEONE HELP MEEE!!
Oh fuck. I think there's an assembly tomorrow. My hair. MY HAIR.
OH SHIT the tortoise. THE TORTOISE!!! Oh shit oh shit oh shit. Oh no. It's still sitting on my bedside table. It should NOT be sitting on my bedside table. Thanks to Tessy!! She tried to throw the poor thing at me and it fell into the porridge.
Dang. I hope he doesn't kill me. =S
AHHH have to clean the stupid counter tomorrow. And all the Form 4s have early classes. Guess what lesson?
HISTORY.
Damn it. The most tedious, boring subject of all as the first subject of the day. Can it get any better?
I missss you!! Sigh. Paranoid. =(
LONG POST : RANTING, PRATTLING, BABBLING, BLABBING .....
Damn. I really don't like being in Form 4.
There's nothing good about being a Form 4 student. Nothing at all. Especially not when you have to write essays with 1000 words.
I have insane piles of homework to do. One after another, all from our stupid Chinese teacher. (It rhymes. Perfect.)
We haven't even passed up the first essay and the teacher already gave us another one. Like one fucking essay isn't enough?
Sigh. I am so confused right now!! Everything really is so different.
Choosing the Science stream was not a good idea. It's crazy. Are we supposed to cope with Physics, Biology and Chemistry all at once? (Well obviously we are, but still ...)
Hellooo, it's only the second week of school, and already the pressure is on. I feel stressed. I'm worried about the exams. Worried about how many subjects I will fail. Chinese. Malay. Physics. Add Maths.
How can I NOT fail Add Maths? My sister failed the subject. Once. MY SISTER. People who know my sister will understand my ... err, pessimistic attitude.
Thank goodness I made the decision to attend the Add Maths tuition with Rui Mei and Ning Zhen. My first ever (real) tuition class.
I used to go to a school teacher's house last year, and she taught us Science. I feel like laughing my head off whenever I think about it. What the FUCK did I attend the tuition for? It seems so totally unnecessary right now. Science. It is such an easy subject. Compared to the mad subjects we have this year.
Our Add Maths teacher at school, she sucks. Okay, she's a very nice person, but honestly, the way she teaches .... I don't think many of us understood what she said in class. Plus the way she dresses is a big, biggg distraction.
When she stepped into class today, I said, "Ahhh, today is Hari Raya hor!!" and Rui Mei started signing "Selamat Hari Raya". Which led me to throwing a note with "Selamat Hari Raya!!" to her, and in the end, when the note came back to me, there was a sketch of the teacher's head. Which was totally not similar to the actual person. And I continued drawing the teacher's body. A bit distorted, but couldn't help it.
And the four of us couldn't stop sniggering.
And no, she's not a Malay. It's just that every month on the 15th the teachers need to wear clothes with batik-prints. And extraordinarily our Add Maths teacher was the only one who reminded us of Hari Raya.
Our History teacher, I don't even want to start. She's HILARIOUS. Not in a good way. I don't want to describe her, and her classes. I already did so to Iris at school. In front of another teacher. And we all cracked up. I know that was rude and completely mean. But who cares lah.
Sigggh. Back to tuitions. I don't really like them! Sometimes they are just so boring. Actually, today was just my second time attending a tuition class. So it means that they aren't just boring sometimes, they're always boring. But what can I do?? I don't want to get lousy results for every subject ...
And I know having a sister, just a year older, and studying in the same school is a good thing - she can tell you what to expect in the exams, etc - but arrgh, I so hate the teachers comparing us. Because basically she's the good sister, with good results and all, and I'm the bad (not really bad, just not as good as her) sister.
Example : She's in the fifth year at school already and she has NEVER been demerited. And I get demerited on the first day back to school.
Get what I mean? The teachers always say : Oh, her sister is a very good student!! Blah blah blah.
Not that I really care, because being like her is one of the last things I want in the world. I never ever want to be such a goody-goody like her. Oh, no. It'd take all the fun out of life. Sigh, it's annoying enough already, with so many people saying that we LOOK alike. When we don't. Not really. Nooooo. I don't want to be like her.
But everyone who knows us both knows that we have very different personalities. They all say I'm ... crazier. *snorts* Well, actually, I suppose I am. Haaaa. Good to see there's a difference. Yi Ling says I am more childish. Damn.
Anyway. I am extremely busy these days. Extremely busy, but of course there's still time to use the computer. Of course. I don't feel like doing my homework, especially not the "Hug the Sky" essay. Someone help me. SOMEONE HELP MEEE!!
Oh fuck. I think there's an assembly tomorrow. My hair. MY HAIR.
OH SHIT the tortoise. THE TORTOISE!!! Oh shit oh shit oh shit. Oh no. It's still sitting on my bedside table. It should NOT be sitting on my bedside table. Thanks to Tessy!! She tried to throw the poor thing at me and it fell into the porridge.
Dang. I hope he doesn't kill me. =S
AHHH have to clean the stupid counter tomorrow. And all the Form 4s have early classes. Guess what lesson?
HISTORY.
Damn it. The most tedious, boring subject of all as the first subject of the day. Can it get any better?
I missss you!! Sigh. Paranoid. =(
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
8:19 PM
8:19 PM
♥ Sunday, January 11, 2009 ♥
Sweet Memories of 2008
LONG POST AHEAD~!!!
Yeah, I know it's a bit late for this.
And I did not make any New Year Resolutions this year. I mean, what's the point? They're always the same. Like, I must lose weight. I must exercise more. I must eat less unhealthy food. I must study harder. I must get good results.
(Hah. Hit the nail on the head didn't I? I'm sure, if you DO have a New Year Resolution List, that there is at least one thing in your list that I listed out above. Even for those skinny people.)
I LOVED 2008!! It was an awesome year.
And 99% of the awesomeness was because of my friends. Life without them is like ... like ... no, I wasn't going to say the typical, cliched "sky without the sun" ... but whatever, you get the picture. No friends, no life.
I LOVE THEM ALL!!
Rui Mei, Hui Jing, Crystal & I
Eh. Surprisingly, Rui Mei looks quite nice in the above photo. Well, except for her yellow skin. Bananaaaa.
Rui Mei & I
She looks like a pig. *snorts*
Rui Mei, Crystal, Jun Wei, Hui Jing & I
*sniffs* I really miss 2008.
That photo was taken during the Science Fair. Gaik Lan helped us take it. Thanks a bunch!! =)
See, I told you. Middle finger = GLEE.
Priceless photo. Jun Wei picking her nose!!!!
Okay, just joking. She's not quite that disgusting. *winks*
Haha. All right, all right. She's not disgusting at all. Really.
Tict Chyn!!
This photo is hilarious. To me. Cracks me up. xD
Ahh but there is another photo that cracks me up even more. Photo of who?
Rui Mei of course. Who else?? *grins*
Tict Chyn, Jit Nee & I
*pouts*
Gosh I so miss those days I so so so miss those days ....
Wendy, Sue Yi & I
Wendy is in Singapore now!! Aww.
Ee Leng said she saw Wendy at her school. Maybe it was her, maybe it wasn't. But whatever, I hope she's doing fine there!
Tessy & I
Oh, my poor daughter. =P
Hahaha. My ADOPTED daughter. Eh, it all fits!! My adopted daughter is sooo freaking tall. My other daughters, the real ones, are ... well, not that tall. *coughs* Especially my eldest daughter. HAHAHA. Shi Yin!!!
They inherited the .... petiteness (I am not short I am not short I AM NOT SHORT noooo) from me! Heeehee.
I ♥ THEM!!! (and myself mwahahah)
Hahaha. HAHAHA. HAAAAA. *smirks*
Our beloved CO teacher and my 2008 class teacher/Chinese teacher.
Oh, sorry, but I can't help mentioning (again) : MY HAIR WAS SO LONG!!
Fucking Bull Horn. Grrr.
Chiew Na & I
Oh, my poor sister. =P
Eh, how is it that my sister is so damn tall and skinny when I am so .... petite (NOT SHORT)(but then I don't think I can describe myself as petite, because ... I'm just not) and fat??
Hsieh Ying, Chiew Na, Ah Siok & I
Ahhh. Little Cottage.
Hsieh Ying & I
My mother!!
Photo taken after CO Master Class, a memorable experience.
Rui Mei & I
Superstars. But of course!! Normal people's hairs don't fly like that. ;P
Hahaha. Okay that was utterly lame. And ridiculous.
Crystal's house~
Butterfly Farm
No eye!! Hair was (quite) long. Sigh. SIGHHH.
(Eh that's a real butterfly. I know it looks fake, like a magnet or something, but it's real.)
Which is prettier? Daisies or me?
Meeee. Of course it's me.
Slap me.
Taken at Cameron Highlands.
My legs look quite thin here!!
But it is merely an optical illusion. Lighting problems. Pfft.
Heritage Walk : E3B
I MISS MY FORM 3 CLASS!! Damnnn.
All my classmates were there, all except for stupid Jun Wei. Pooo.
Chinese Orchestra Competition
The trip to KL was my happiest memory (one of them actually) in 2008 ...
The place the competition was held - 天后宫
Tessy, Wen Huey, Shuyan, Hsieh Ying, Yi Ling, Wei Ying, Ming Hui, Chiew Na & I (at the front)
Family photo!! Except for Ming Hui, she's an ... extra. =P (I know that sounds mean)
And my two other daughters weren't there ... *sigh*
I LOVE ALL OF THEM!!! And I miss them all so much. We are in different sessions now ... Only Hsieh Ying, Chiew Na and I are in the afternoon session~ IT SUCKS. I miss them. =(
We were shopping at Times Square ...
Well, not exactly shopping. Fooling around like the crazy teenagers we are, more like. Heeee.
The impressive (kind of), magnificently decorated (kind of) tree at the shopping mall ...
Yi Ling, Wen Huey, Hsieh Ying & Chiew Na
So cute! :)
Had dinner at a place called Vivo~ (Een Joe loves that place)
The photo is fucking blurry right!! Lousy photographer. But at least he volunteered to help us take the photo, which, I suppose, is good enough.
Chiew Na, Tessy, *MEEE*, Wen Huey, Wei Ying & Hsieh Ying
Stars and capital letters to ... what, make a statement. Like I always do. Hahaha.
Still my beloved family. And my two daughters. The left one is the daughter I ... dislike the most, and the right one is the one I love the most. *winks* =P
Yummm.
Deeee-lish. =D
Wen Huey & I
Nah. My favourite daughter!!!
*Hope everything goes well for her, and I really hope she doesn't ---*
Tessy
(ooh I like her pretty smile, must be an ... inheritance from me)(but shit she's my adopted daughter, I forgot)(never mind my smile is still very pretty mwahaha)
My mother - Hsieh Ying
Her eyes are so pretty ooh la la!! Pity I don't have eyes like hers. Neither does Chiew Na. Sighhh.
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall,
Who's the fairest of them all - ME!!
Damn. Why am I so freaking self-obsessed? Why? I can't control it, I can't ....
Couldn't resist, sorry. I think the hotel toilet is nicer than the hotel itself, so I just had to take a photo. (eh, it kind of doesn't make sense)
Cock-a-doodle-doooo~
The three of us are born in the year of the Chicken ... (or however you say it lah)
Like I said before, it is a very inappropriate part of the chicken to place two hands over, no?? But it really, really, REALLY is unintentional!! Why would I place two hands over a chicken's boobs? Why? And chickens don't have boobs anyway. End of story.
But it is still sort of disgusting. Yuck. Chicken molester. Chicken Raper. Uggh.
Xi Ying's dog (forgot the name)
DAMN FUCKING CUTE!!! Ahh!
And that's my hand it's licking. Aww. AWWW. *faints*
Picture perfect - Chiew Na & the dog
Lai Sheng & the dog
Xi Ying, owner of the dog, at the back ...
Horrifying. He almost dropped the poor thing on the floor. But I like this photo! LS looks sooo happy. ;)
Yi Ling & I
I look freaking ugly in the photo above. But whatever, it's the only photo I took with Yi Ling during the trip ...
Photo taken at Mid Valley, after we had lunch. Oh I remember I was ... voiceless at that moment. Got the competition results the previous day, and screamed like ... (heard this from someone) according to Xin Rui, like a woman in labour. Oh God. Was I really that bad? xD
Shuyan & I
Aww. I like this photo. =D
Chiew Na & I
My nice sister. Hearts!!
I LOVE YOU ALL!!
Photo taken on the bus during the trip home. I was so sad to be coming home at that time ... still sort of upset now ... I wish I can stay there in KL forever, with my friends, with nothing to worry about, just having fun ...
*reminiscent smile*
Chinese Orchestra Farewell 2008
Awake sleeping beauties. =D
Hsieh Ying & I
Presents/souvenirs/gifts/whatever it was for the seniors who are leaving ...
Oh, Hsieh Ying looks so cute and funny. Hahahaha.
Chiew Na, Hsieh Ying, Shi Yin & I
I super love this photo!! Don't ask me why, I just do.
Uh-oh. Suddenly realised I have so many homeworks to complete.
Stupid "Hug The Sky" essay has to be handed in by next Thursday. And another Chinese homework. Which is also very hard. Have to write a lot of things too, must fill in the whole fucking page. Sigh. Then I have Physics homework. And Biology. And Chemistry.
Oh God. That really sounds like a lot.
Fuck I so hate so hate sooo hate Form 4. This is a terribly lousy start to the year.
And I'm sorry for the sudden, abrupt end to this post.
*Horrible realisation : We really are too different. I must accept the truth, accept the reality and stop fantasizing about something that can never ever happen.*
Yeah, I know it's a bit late for this.
And I did not make any New Year Resolutions this year. I mean, what's the point? They're always the same. Like, I must lose weight. I must exercise more. I must eat less unhealthy food. I must study harder. I must get good results.
(Hah. Hit the nail on the head didn't I? I'm sure, if you DO have a New Year Resolution List, that there is at least one thing in your list that I listed out above. Even for those skinny people.)
I LOVED 2008!! It was an awesome year.
And 99% of the awesomeness was because of my friends. Life without them is like ... like ... no, I wasn't going to say the typical, cliched "sky without the sun" ... but whatever, you get the picture. No friends, no life.
I LOVE THEM ALL!!
Rui Mei, Hui Jing, Crystal & I
Eh. Surprisingly, Rui Mei looks quite nice in the above photo. Well, except for her yellow skin. Bananaaaa.
Rui Mei & I
She looks like a pig. *snorts*
Rui Mei, Crystal, Jun Wei, Hui Jing & I
*sniffs* I really miss 2008.
That photo was taken during the Science Fair. Gaik Lan helped us take it. Thanks a bunch!! =)
See, I told you. Middle finger = GLEE.
Priceless photo. Jun Wei picking her nose!!!!
Okay, just joking. She's not quite that disgusting. *winks*
Haha. All right, all right. She's not disgusting at all. Really.
Tict Chyn!!
This photo is hilarious. To me. Cracks me up. xD
Ahh but there is another photo that cracks me up even more. Photo of who?
Rui Mei of course. Who else?? *grins*
Tict Chyn, Jit Nee & I
*pouts*
Gosh I so miss those days I so so so miss those days ....
Wendy, Sue Yi & I
Wendy is in Singapore now!! Aww.
Ee Leng said she saw Wendy at her school. Maybe it was her, maybe it wasn't. But whatever, I hope she's doing fine there!
Tessy & I
Oh, my poor daughter. =P
Hahaha. My ADOPTED daughter. Eh, it all fits!! My adopted daughter is sooo freaking tall. My other daughters, the real ones, are ... well, not that tall. *coughs* Especially my eldest daughter. HAHAHA. Shi Yin!!!
They inherited the .... petiteness (I am not short I am not short I AM NOT SHORT noooo) from me! Heeehee.
I ♥ THEM!!! (and myself mwahahah)
Hahaha. HAHAHA. HAAAAA. *smirks*
Our beloved CO teacher and my 2008 class teacher/Chinese teacher.
Oh, sorry, but I can't help mentioning (again) : MY HAIR WAS SO LONG!!
Fucking Bull Horn. Grrr.
Chiew Na & I
Oh, my poor sister. =P
Eh, how is it that my sister is so damn tall and skinny when I am so .... petite (NOT SHORT)(but then I don't think I can describe myself as petite, because ... I'm just not) and fat??
Hsieh Ying, Chiew Na, Ah Siok & I
Ahhh. Little Cottage.
Hsieh Ying & I
My mother!!
Photo taken after CO Master Class, a memorable experience.
Rui Mei & I
Superstars. But of course!! Normal people's hairs don't fly like that. ;P
Hahaha. Okay that was utterly lame. And ridiculous.
Crystal's house~
Butterfly Farm
No eye!! Hair was (quite) long. Sigh. SIGHHH.
(Eh that's a real butterfly. I know it looks fake, like a magnet or something, but it's real.)
Which is prettier? Daisies or me?
Meeee. Of course it's me.
Slap me.
Taken at Cameron Highlands.
My legs look quite thin here!!
But it is merely an optical illusion. Lighting problems. Pfft.
Heritage Walk : E3B
I MISS MY FORM 3 CLASS!! Damnnn.
All my classmates were there, all except for stupid Jun Wei. Pooo.
Chinese Orchestra Competition
The trip to KL was my happiest memory (one of them actually) in 2008 ...
The place the competition was held - 天后宫
Tessy, Wen Huey, Shuyan, Hsieh Ying, Yi Ling, Wei Ying, Ming Hui, Chiew Na & I (at the front)
Family photo!! Except for Ming Hui, she's an ... extra. =P (I know that sounds mean)
And my two other daughters weren't there ... *sigh*
I LOVE ALL OF THEM!!! And I miss them all so much. We are in different sessions now ... Only Hsieh Ying, Chiew Na and I are in the afternoon session~ IT SUCKS. I miss them. =(
We were shopping at Times Square ...
Well, not exactly shopping. Fooling around like the crazy teenagers we are, more like. Heeee.
The impressive (kind of), magnificently decorated (kind of) tree at the shopping mall ...
Yi Ling, Wen Huey, Hsieh Ying & Chiew Na
So cute! :)
Had dinner at a place called Vivo~ (Een Joe loves that place)
The photo is fucking blurry right!! Lousy photographer. But at least he volunteered to help us take the photo, which, I suppose, is good enough.
Chiew Na, Tessy, *MEEE*, Wen Huey, Wei Ying & Hsieh Ying
Stars and capital letters to ... what, make a statement. Like I always do. Hahaha.
Still my beloved family. And my two daughters. The left one is the daughter I ... dislike the most, and the right one is the one I love the most. *winks* =P
Yummm.
Deeee-lish. =D
Wen Huey & I
Nah. My favourite daughter!!!
*Hope everything goes well for her, and I really hope she doesn't ---*
Tessy
(ooh I like her pretty smile, must be an ... inheritance from me)(but shit she's my adopted daughter, I forgot)(never mind my smile is still very pretty mwahaha)
My mother - Hsieh Ying
Her eyes are so pretty ooh la la!! Pity I don't have eyes like hers. Neither does Chiew Na. Sighhh.
Mirror mirror hanging on the wall,
Who's the fairest of them all - ME!!
Damn. Why am I so freaking self-obsessed? Why? I can't control it, I can't ....
Couldn't resist, sorry. I think the hotel toilet is nicer than the hotel itself, so I just had to take a photo. (eh, it kind of doesn't make sense)
Cock-a-doodle-doooo~
The three of us are born in the year of the Chicken ... (or however you say it lah)
Like I said before, it is a very inappropriate part of the chicken to place two hands over, no?? But it really, really, REALLY is unintentional!! Why would I place two hands over a chicken's boobs? Why? And chickens don't have boobs anyway. End of story.
But it is still sort of disgusting. Yuck. Chicken molester. Chicken Raper. Uggh.
Xi Ying's dog (forgot the name)
DAMN FUCKING CUTE!!! Ahh!
And that's my hand it's licking. Aww. AWWW. *faints*
Picture perfect - Chiew Na & the dog
Lai Sheng & the dog
Xi Ying, owner of the dog, at the back ...
Horrifying. He almost dropped the poor thing on the floor. But I like this photo! LS looks sooo happy. ;)
Yi Ling & I
I look freaking ugly in the photo above. But whatever, it's the only photo I took with Yi Ling during the trip ...
Photo taken at Mid Valley, after we had lunch. Oh I remember I was ... voiceless at that moment. Got the competition results the previous day, and screamed like ... (heard this from someone) according to Xin Rui, like a woman in labour. Oh God. Was I really that bad? xD
Shuyan & I
Aww. I like this photo. =D
Chiew Na & I
My nice sister. Hearts!!
I LOVE YOU ALL!!
Photo taken on the bus during the trip home. I was so sad to be coming home at that time ... still sort of upset now ... I wish I can stay there in KL forever, with my friends, with nothing to worry about, just having fun ...
*reminiscent smile*
Chinese Orchestra Farewell 2008
Awake sleeping beauties. =D
Hsieh Ying & I
Presents/souvenirs/gifts/whatever it was for the seniors who are leaving ...
Oh, Hsieh Ying looks so cute and funny. Hahahaha.
Chiew Na, Hsieh Ying, Shi Yin & I
I super love this photo!! Don't ask me why, I just do.
Uh-oh. Suddenly realised I have so many homeworks to complete.
Stupid "Hug The Sky" essay has to be handed in by next Thursday. And another Chinese homework. Which is also very hard. Have to write a lot of things too, must fill in the whole fucking page. Sigh. Then I have Physics homework. And Biology. And Chemistry.
Oh God. That really sounds like a lot.
Fuck I so hate so hate sooo hate Form 4. This is a terribly lousy start to the year.
And I'm sorry for the sudden, abrupt end to this post.
*Horrible realisation : We really are too different. I must accept the truth, accept the reality and stop fantasizing about something that can never ever happen.*
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
8:33 PM
8:33 PM
♥ Friday, January 09, 2009 ♥
Exhausted
9 January 2009
So, the first week of school is officially over. What a nightmare.
I really don't like Form 4.
Everything was so simple and relaxing last year, back in Form 3. And then suddenly, now, we're taking a big step (a too big one, in my opinion) into an unfamiliar, hectic, stressful, different life.
New subjects, new standards, new exam formats .... We used to write Chinese essays with 200-400 words, and now, we have to write essays with at least 800-1200 words. Insane or what?
And you don't normally write essays with titles like 拥抱蓝天. Hug the sky. Whatever that's supposed to mean. Something to do with hope, blah blah. I detest Chinese. I SOOOO DETEST CHINESE.
Hope .... if I'm allowed to, if I dared to, I'd just write : I hope I never have to study Chinese again. Never. I don't really mind speaking Chinese, but, on the other hand, I don't really mind NOT speaking Chinese either.
Sigh. Sigh. SIGH.
I HOPE something happens to lighten up my mood. But .... *dubious look*
Anyway, here are a few photos from last year, and the start of this year ... sigh, those were good times~
In PENANG :
Christmas Eve ... (iPod is not mine *sniff*)
Ting Li and I [and a curly fry]
(I suck in the above photo, I know. But it's the only one I have ..)
I'm not entirely sure whether the spelling of her name is correct or not, but who cares! I ... officially met her on Christmas Day, and she's sooo nice!! Sooo friendly.
I might have (well I actually did) met her a few times before that day. Maybe many years ago. And during 2007, in Singapore. Went out with her family along with my aunt, uncle and Ee Leng, but I don't really remember any of their faces. Sigh, can't blame me for having lousy memory.
Big and Small
Hot and cold, yes and no, in and out, up and down, wrong and right, black and white, fight and break up, kiss and make up ...
Ee Leng, my sister and I
Just a random photo outside a random place ... I remember, it was exactly one day after we got back from the CO competition ...
In SINGAPORE :
New Year's Eve ...
The glee of giving the middle finger to two (mad) teenagers ... =P
Oh, look at my pretty manicure!!
I like this photo!
Sigh, the Ripples flip-flops are actually new you know. But after wearing them for a nice long day (only a day) of shopping - first at Bugis Junction, then walked to Orchard Road and walked some more - it became like that.
Maybe I'm too heavy. *despaired look*
But no matter! I have another pair!! It is brown with pink polka dots, which is extremely cute. Too cute, even. Which makes me a bit ... reluctant to wear them. They are currently under my bed ... Good spot to hide them, because if I don't see them, I won't feel the urge to wear them.
Okay, I will post the other Singapore photos next time!! I'm so freaking tired, and I want to tumble into bed, and never wake up. I mean ... well, never get up.
Have to go to school again tomorrow. On a Saturday. In fact, the FIRST Saturday after school reopened. Damn.
So, the first week of school is officially over. What a nightmare.
I really don't like Form 4.
Everything was so simple and relaxing last year, back in Form 3. And then suddenly, now, we're taking a big step (a too big one, in my opinion) into an unfamiliar, hectic, stressful, different life.
New subjects, new standards, new exam formats .... We used to write Chinese essays with 200-400 words, and now, we have to write essays with at least 800-1200 words. Insane or what?
And you don't normally write essays with titles like 拥抱蓝天. Hug the sky. Whatever that's supposed to mean. Something to do with hope, blah blah. I detest Chinese. I SOOOO DETEST CHINESE.
Hope .... if I'm allowed to, if I dared to, I'd just write : I hope I never have to study Chinese again. Never. I don't really mind speaking Chinese, but, on the other hand, I don't really mind NOT speaking Chinese either.
Sigh. Sigh. SIGH.
I HOPE something happens to lighten up my mood. But .... *dubious look*
Anyway, here are a few photos from last year, and the start of this year ... sigh, those were good times~
In PENANG :
Christmas Eve ... (iPod is not mine *sniff*)
Ting Li and I [and a curly fry]
(I suck in the above photo, I know. But it's the only one I have ..)
I'm not entirely sure whether the spelling of her name is correct or not, but who cares! I ... officially met her on Christmas Day, and she's sooo nice!! Sooo friendly.
I might have (well I actually did) met her a few times before that day. Maybe many years ago. And during 2007, in Singapore. Went out with her family along with my aunt, uncle and Ee Leng, but I don't really remember any of their faces. Sigh, can't blame me for having lousy memory.
Big and Small
Hot and cold, yes and no, in and out, up and down, wrong and right, black and white, fight and break up, kiss and make up ...
Ee Leng, my sister and I
Just a random photo outside a random place ... I remember, it was exactly one day after we got back from the CO competition ...
In SINGAPORE :
New Year's Eve ...
The glee of giving the middle finger to two (mad) teenagers ... =P
Oh, look at my pretty manicure!!
I like this photo!
Sigh, the Ripples flip-flops are actually new you know. But after wearing them for a nice long day (only a day) of shopping - first at Bugis Junction, then walked to Orchard Road and walked some more - it became like that.
Maybe I'm too heavy. *despaired look*
But no matter! I have another pair!! It is brown with pink polka dots, which is extremely cute. Too cute, even. Which makes me a bit ... reluctant to wear them. They are currently under my bed ... Good spot to hide them, because if I don't see them, I won't feel the urge to wear them.
Okay, I will post the other Singapore photos next time!! I'm so freaking tired, and I want to tumble into bed, and never wake up. I mean ... well, never get up.
Have to go to school again tomorrow. On a Saturday. In fact, the FIRST Saturday after school reopened. Damn.
♥ craving chocolate kisses ..
9:29 PM
9:29 PM