10 February 2008

Damn it.

NOW I couldn't possibly continue to blog about my happy days. No, not because of Ee Leng this time although she IS sort of bothering me in MSN. Hee hee.

It's actually because of HER. No naming names here, and I can't very well describe her looks, our relationship, her personality etc. Because then it would be too obvious because she's the only one person I've seen and known that acts like that. Who knows. One day she might come across my blog. If not, she might even be reading it already.

*sigh*

For once (not true) I can only run through all the swear words and angry feelings in my heart. Can't scream it out loud to no one in particular. Can't type it here. Can't write it in a paper, because the pencils and pens are too heavy, and the paper too light.

Anyway.

Have you ever seen anyone that ... *close eyes and curse silently* Shit. It really IS hard to say it.

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Inner voices in my head :

Devil : She's such a fucking annoying bitch. How can you put up with her for like, years already??! Listen to me now, girl, take a knife, I mean NOW, and stab it straight into her heart.

Me : Um, okay. Sounds like a good idea. Which knife should I use??

Devil : Use the biggest and sharpest one you can find. Or just use the one people use to slaughter pigs. Because SHE really is a pig.

Angel : No, NOOO, wait!! Have you two ever thought about her good side?? She's quite nice, really. Um, when she's not acting like THAT. (see, angels have bad sides too)

Devil : Quite nice, my squiggly red ass.

Me : Well, I suppose she IS quite nice sometimes. Like, she can be funny, and she, uh, we ... play together??

Angel : Yes, yes, that's my point. See?? Nobody is perfect, except for me, but that is excusable because I'm an angel. You see, everyone ...

[Devil cuts Angel off rudely]

Devil : Have you found the knife?? Quick. I'll help you distract her stupid companion, and you stab it into her heart. Or just slit her throat. And kill the companion if necessary.

Angel : Don't!! Don't listen to Devil. Even though you hate HER, you still care about her, right?? You'd never let her know you're feeling the hatred deep down inside, right?? And you didn't ignore her, you still talk and play together, don't you?? That means you still care.

Devil : *snorts* I'm tired of arguing. You can choose which side you want to be with, me, or the saintly Angel.

Me : I guess the Angel's right .... *Angel whooped loudly in the background* I really DO care about her, kind of, so ....

[Angel cuts me off with a happy smile]

Angel : Thank you, thank you for siding with me. I'm proud of you. You KNOW it is the right decision..

Me : [ignoring Angel] I'm killing her with the knife.

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Yup. It IS the right decision. She deserves to be killed. Seriously.

AHHHHH.

She's driving me mad. What's with all the ... no. Wrong start. Ok. Why must you fucking .... Wait. I can't ask that way. Can you please quit all the ...

DAMN IT.

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Frenchman in my house that day. A REAL Frenchman. Who speaks REAL French and all.

Oh my God.

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Which makes me even madder than ever. What the heck.

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The Frenchman wasn't really tall. In fact, he's quite short. If compared to my cousins. Two 16-year-old twins. They were the same height with the Frenchman, who is now my ... who?? Uncle?? No. He's my cousin's hubbie, which is ... my uncle???!

Whatever.

I think he looks like Doctor Lecter in the movie Silence of the Lambs. It's so creepy.

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Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck her and her attempt at ....

*screams loudly*

AHHHHHHH.

Devil : Are you okay? Have you ....

Me : SHUT THE FUCK UP CAN OR NOT?

Okay. I'm fine.

I'm fine.

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